Page 68 of Alaska Lights

“I can’t lie and say I’m not nervous,” I start, tightening the cinch.

Glenn’s surprised if his scent says anything about it, and he slides off his horse. “Yeah? Why nervous?”

“Come on, man,” I chuckle. “You know why.”

“Cause neither of you have been with a man before, so you’re lost on what to do.”

“Not completely lost,” I grumble, my cheeks heating at what Leo and I did earlier today.

“If you need help, you can always ask me, you know. I’ve been with men and women.”

“Really?” I tap my fingers on the saddle, debating, and leaning more towards yes.

“Absolutely.” Glenn pats my shoulder, and I growl in warning, not wanting his fucking touch.

Helios is the only one allowed to touch me.

“Right. Sorry. I forgot. Still unmated, so you’re all grumpy.” Glenn tosses the saddlebags on my horse, helping me prepare. “But yes, any help you need, you can ask, and anything you talk about with me is safe, Alaska. That I can promise.”

I hang my head and nod, nervousness twisting my gut. “How…when I…when we…” I stumble over the words, then reach up to scratch my neck. This is awkward.

“Yes?” Glenn crosses his arms, grinning like a madman.

Oh, he’s loving this.

“I’ll just look it up.” The tips of my ears are on fire.

“You’re wondering how to have sex without it hurting him, right?”

I nod, embarrassed. I’m two centuries and forty years old, and I don’t know how to have sex with my mate?

“Well, have you had anal with a woman?”

I shake my head.

“Oh, wow,” Glenn’s eyes widen. “Okay, you’re a virgin.”

“I’m not a damn virgin. It’s just…” Been about a hundred and fifty years, but he doesn’t need to know that.

“You’re a virgin in this relationship, and so is he. Okay, listen. Don’t overthink it. You’re going to want lube. You can never have too much lube, and you can’t just rush into shoving your cock inside him.”

“Glenn,” I sneer at his crassness.

“What? That’s what you’re wanting to know. And it’s important because you have to work him up to fit you if you want him to be comfortable. Start with fingers. Stretch him out. Get a plug so he can get used to it.”

“I can’t get a plug in time. We can’t travel, remember?”

“Okay, so use these.” He wiggles his fingers. “Just sheathe your claws.”

I let his words bounce around in my head, hoping a repeat of what happened earlier today happens tonight. I’m dying to put my hands on him. There’s actually something else stirring inside me I’ve never felt before, like a feralness clawing at my skin to be inside Leo.

“And it wouldn’t hurt to research some porn. A video or two will help.”

“Thanks, Glenn. I appreciate it.” I roll up a blanket, stuffing it into the saddlebags. I have a few containers of food too. Nothing special. I made steak sandwiches, but all the ingredients are separated so the bread won’t get soggy.

“Anytime, Al. And there’s no reason to be nervous. He’s your mate. You two are more aligned and ready than you think.”

“I didn’t think I’d ever be happy finding a mate. I thought it would feel like a never-ending death sentence having to live forever. It doesn’t feel that way anymore. Actually, I feel like I’m just living for the first time. I hope you and Glenn get to experience this one day. I demand it, actually. I can’t be without you guys.”