Page 125 of Cautious Love

“I need you, Shy,” he rasps.

I nod and nip his jaw.

He reaches into his nightstand. When he’s ready, his focus returns to me, and I shift under his scrutiny.

He drags himself over my center, making my hips buck, and he chuckles.

“Please,” I rasp.

He gives me what I want, slowly rocking into me.

All I am is nerve endings and reactions.

His hand fists the sheets next to my head as his other tightens on my hip. We’re so close, but not close enough.

“More. Ledger,” I moan.

He huffs and kisses me, bringing me to his mercy with each torturous thrust of his hips.

My eyes fall closed, savoring every devastating pulse of our bodies.

“Look at me,” he commands.

My eyes obey on their own, fluttering open.

Ledger groans sitting up with me in his arms as he thrusts up into me. Slow is no longer an option. My head drops back on a cry and he sucks on my pulse.

Grazing his teeth across my skin, I shudder in his hold, fisting his hair, and he moans into my skin, laying me down while he stays kneeling between my legs to lift my hips up.

He picks up his pace, focused on where we’re connected, and when he looks up, all I see is the longing in his eyes,the hunger.

I can’t look away, watching sweat drip down his chest as I meet his thrusts.

His rhythm falters as he drives me up the bed. I brace my hands on the headboard, and he groans, dropping his head back, losing his restraint.

The edge melts in front of me. I can feel myself start to fall over it. A tear drops from my eye as the feeling of Ledger and what we’re sharing nearly swallows me whole. My heart screams and my soul howls with understanding.

He grunts as my body silently begs for him to put me over the edge.

“You’re doing so good, baby, look at you,” he mumbles.

My nails dig into the wood as I cry out, lifting my leg into the crook of his elbow as his thrusts get rougher, more uncoordinated.

Our mouths smash together, and it’s messy and needy, and I know somewhere in the back of my mind, on the walls of my heart, that this will never be enough.

Then he slows again as if he never wants this to end, burning me with his hips, effectively turning the floor beneath us to ash, and I fall.

A strangled noise rips from my throat as my vision tunnels.

Somewhere in the distance I can hear him moan into my skin, but I’m still floating in the stars.

His hips don’t stop as my body trembles with the comedown, relishing every stroke as I cling to him.

We finally still, and he looks down at me as if he’s seeing me for the first time. And I stare up at him, and it’s like a torrential downpour of emotion.

Everything has changed.

Ledger blinks, finally returning to Earth and drops next to me, both of us wincing in the process. He seizes my chin and kisses me before hopping up and going to the bathroom.