Page 53 of Cessation
“Nah, you and Yani were picture perfect for sure. She looked good on your arm too. I can really see y’all becoming a family, especially with her easy-going spirit.”
“Same thing I thought about. Time will tell though.”
We continued to stroll through the mall when I saw someone that resembled Yani under a nigga near the boutique we were headed to.
“Aye bro. I don’t want to assume shit but ain’t that yo’ girl right there?”
I was hoping that wasn’t Yani, but it was clear that Josiaha saw what I did. I stopped him in his path and pulled out my cell to hit her line. We had several sentimental conversations and moments. She could’ve kept it real with me if she had interest in someone else.
The phone rang on my end and because of her screening the call, I proceeded to take steps in her direction. I overheard the nigga ask her who was calling, and her response took me out.
“What’s up beautiful? What you doing here?”
My voice startled her and when she turned around her eyes were big as saucers. She wasn’t expecting to see me, but it was cool. I guess you couldn’t put shit pass nobody these days.
“Yani who the fuck is this?” he questioned with an eyebrow lifted and his mouth screwed-up.
“Oh, I’m nobody. Ain’t that right baby?”
“Trust this is Paxton.”
“Why do I know that name? You’re her ex, right?” I questioned not taking my eyes off Yani.
“Nah nigga. I’m her fiancé. I’m guessing you the muthafucka she been trying to hide from me.”
I looked down at the bag she held and thought about it all. The set she had made up had nothing to do with me. That set was made for the family she shared with her baby daddy and son. I wasn’t involved or included in that situation. She was playing me like a fool.
The big ass ring on her finger was from him. She was bold enough to wear it around me but not woman enough to tell the truth behind it. She lied to my face and still let the wordsI love youcome out her mouth. She wasn’t shit for real.
“Nah big dawg. Nobodies aren’t hidden or anything to worry about. I’m about to get out y’all hair though. Jo let’s dip out.”
I wasn’t confrontational and damn sure wasn’t about to sweat no bitch. It hurt that the woman I loved and was so head strong on being with was fuckin’ with my feelings the same way that clown ass nigga did hers.
We said nothing as we retreated to the car. I was so pissed that I allowed Jo to drive.
“You think Dawn knew?” he inquired.
“Of course she did. You know how that shit go and them bird’s nigga…”
“They gon’ flock together,” he said, finishing my statement.
He pulled off and thoughts of betrayal played on a loop. Yani had a choice and after all that nigga put her through, she was still dealing with him. I, however, was a muthafucka she didn’t have to worry about.
Yani
“Bitch, I should smack the dog shit out yo’ ass for playing with me. He the nigga that sent you that fuckin’ necklace ain’t he?”
We were in the car and Trust wasn’t giving me a chance to process anything. Everything had happened so fast that I was still in shock. I wasn’t expecting to see Paxton, especially in no mall. He wasn’t a social type of person. Then to be accompanied by his brother Josiaha, I was sure I would be hearing from Dawn soon.
“Yes, but Trust?—”
“Shut the fuck up talking to me. Hell, he the nigga you giving your pussy to because I ain’t even been able to smell or see that muthafucka since we got back together. You foul as hell.”
I was wrong for sure, and I wasn’t going to deny that but what Trust did to me he had to know that I would get my lick back. Initially, Paxton wasn’t supposed to be the lick at all. I had intentions on moving on but when I started it was all for fun. However, it grew from there and I found myself in a fucked up situation.
“Now I’m the foul one, but you built a whole family on me. Yeah okay.”
I wasn’t even moved by what Trust was talking about. I was more concerned on the hurt I caused Paxton. He showed no emotion, but I knew that he was effected by it. I played in his face and that wasn’t something I wanted to do.
