Page 115 of Finding Hayes
“Well, I’m not a gynecologist, but I can read the blood work. Your HCG levels are unusually high.”
“What does that mean?”
“I can’t say for certain, but it typically means that there’s a chance you’re having twins.”
“Twins?” I could barely get the word out.
More than one baby.
Two babies.
There was a chance I was pregnant with two babies.
By a man who didn’t want children.
My head was spinning. I couldn’t process this.
I’d made a mess of everything.
Dr. Dorsey came around the desk and bent down to look at me. “The good news is that your blood work was perfect otherwise.”
Somehow that doesn’t feel like a relief.
Because I may have just lost the love of my life.
And I didn’t know how to do life without him anymore.
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“It’s a great property.Nothing else like it in Magnolia Falls,” Nash said as we walked toward the barn.
Cutler ran ahead of us, with Winnie and Roddy chasing after him. It was good to see him running around and feeling well, and the asthma medication they were using now seemed to be working much better. He hadn’t had any attacks in months, but it didn’t hurt that Emerson was a pediatrician and was on top of it.
“Yeah. I know how much Savannah loves it out here, so I wanted to get your perspective.”
“Well, it’s going to sell fast because it’s unique. If you aren’t sure about letting it go, you need to get it off the market right away.” Nash paused in front of the barn and chuckled when he glanced over to see Cutler rolling on the ground with Roddy and Winnie watching them like she couldn’t figure out what they were doing.
“He’s feeling good, huh? No issues lately?”
“No. He’s been great. But you just never know, so I’m always prepared, and I’ve always got his inhaler on me, just in case. Itcan sneak up out of nowhere.”
I knew how seriously he and Emerson took it. We were all aware of the asthma action plan and always had the inhaler on us when we had Cutler at our homes.
“Damn, brother. Parenting is not for the weak at heart.”
“No question about that. You don’t think you and Savvy will have kids? She’s pretty fucking amazing with Cutler.” He pulled the door to the barn open.
“She knows that kids aren’t in my future. It kills me, though, because I know she wants a family, and all I can offer her is me and Roddy.” I chuckled, but the truth of it was always with me.
When I closed my eyes, I could see us living here at the farmhouse. And every time I allowed myself a moment to think of the future, I would see a bunch of kids running around on the property. There were animals, laughter, and love.
Things I’d never had.
Things my sister never had.
