Swallowing hard, I took a deep breath and started reading.
Princess,
I have to admit, when Landon informed me of your request for a heartfelt response, I was a bit surprised. Then, I was worried. I must tell you, I haven’t written a letter like this since high school. Back when I thought I was in love with Suzy something or other. I wasn’t, by the way. In love with her. Nor was she in love with me. It was merely young lust, but I have to give Suzy Whatsit some credit because she actually introduced me to this lifestyle. Or rather, her mother did. But I digress. And because you requested it, I’m going to give it my all.
Since you want to know what these past few months have meant to me, I need to start at the beginning. The day I stepped off the elevator and saw you standing in the office, waiting for your interview, I felt as though my life had been changed. There before me stood the most beautiful woman I’d ever laid eyes on. Sure, that probably sounds corny. For a man like me to be captivated by little more than a pleasant smile and a nicely put together face seems all kinds of wrong, but it’s true. The moment I laid eyes on you, I knew you were going to play an important role in my life.
And since that day, my outlook on a lot of things has changed. Before you, I’d gotten myself into a rut, spending the majority of my time working and thinking of little else. Since you arrived, I’ve found myself looking forward to more. More time with you, more time with Ben. Hell, more time with the less rigid side of myself.
Now, I’m not the greatest at expressing how I feel, so I’m sure you’re staring at this page with wide eyes, trying to tie it all back to the man you know me to be. However, I assure you, it’s true.
No matter the decision you make, princess, I want you to know that I’ve enjoyed our time together. I’m hoping for more, but if the time I’ve had is all I get, I’m a better man for it.
Justin
I had to read the letter twice before I could move on, but even then, I had tears pooling in my eyes. Justin Parker wasn’t a cold-hearted Dominant. He was a man with feelings and desires. However, what he said was true. I was having a hard time tying back his words with the man that I knew. And I couldn’t help but think that meant I hadn’t spent nearly enough time getting to know him.
This wasn’t going to be an easy decision.
With a heavy sigh, I folded the letter and placed it back in the envelope before opening the next one. I instantly glanced at the signature. My heart pounded in my chest when I saw that it was from Langston. I immediately folded it back and put it at the bottom of the pile. Although I was trying not to be biased, I knew I couldn’t avoid it. That man had the power to break me and I wanted to hear what the others said first.
I opened the next letter. It was from Ben.
Gumdrop,
If it all seems chaotic right now, I want to assure you that it will pass. Like all the complications we encounter in this life, things will get better. I know that’s not what you want to hear from me, but it’s the wisdom I wish to bestow. I’m a firm believer that our lives are mapped out for us and on every path we find ourselves on, we are meant to make a decision before moving forward. You’re now at that crossroad.
I could go on and on about how I’ve enjoyed our time together and how I want to spend more time with you, but it would all be noise at this point. Follow your heart and we will all end up on the path we’re supposed to be on.
Ben
I sniffled, willing myself not to cry. Ben was one of the kindest men I’d ever met. He had such a good heart. I smiled as I reread the short but sweet letter. I should’ve expected as much from Ben. He had always been there to give me advice, to steer me in the right direction. And yes, we’d had some great times together. I had enjoyed that man more than I could express. However, I also knew that he was devoted to Justin. They had something that no one could impinge upon. He might’ve shared a small piece of himself with me, but I knew where his heart belonged and I couldn’t blame him.
Needless to say, his letter didn’t help me to make a decision; however, it did make me feel better.
