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I looked up.

"I'm out," she said. "Isla and I have been married for eight years. I came out publicly before I ever met you. I have a championship ring, the same one you have. I have three endorsements. I have a career I'm proud of and a wife I love, and a life so full I can barely keep up with it." She leaned forward, elbows on her knees, mirroring me. "Does my life look like it ended when I came out?"

I didn't answer, because she already knew I couldn't.

"I was terrified," she said. "I want you to know that. I was absolutely convinced coming out would cost me all of it. That my sponsors would walk, that the media would make me a cautionary tale, that every question for the rest of my career would be about who I am instead of how I play." She paused. "Some of that happened. One sponsor dropped me. One. I got three interview requests about basketball for every one about being gay, not the other way around. And my game?" She tipped her head toward the court above us. "My game was fine. My game was better than fine."

I sat with the weight of it.

"All I really lost," Trish said quietly, "was the exhaustion of hiding. And I didn't know how heavy it was until I put it down."

"It's different for me," I said, and I could hear how hollow it sounded even as I said it. "I have two seasons left. Reebok, Vitamin Water..."

"Might stay. Might not. You don't actually know."

"I don't want my legacy to be..."

"You played twenty-six and thirteen tonight with your heart broken and couldn't feel a single second of it." Her voice was gentle. The words still landed like a hit I hadn't braced for. "What's your legacy right now, Cam? Wins you can't feel? An empty house? Another woman you let walk away because you were more afraid of being seen than you were of losing her?"

Karlie. Then Harper.

The cruelty of the pattern.

Trish stood and picked up her bag. "I think you've been so focused on what you might lose that you've never once let yourself imagine what you might gain." She stopped at the door. "Don't you want someone to bring home? Someone in the stands, not because she's a friend of a friend, but because she's yours? Openly. In every way that matters?"

She left me alone with the question.

It sat in the empty locker room with me, breathing.

I looked down at the hair tie on my wrist.

Yes.

God, yes.

My house was dark when I got home. I moved through the rooms, turning on lights the way you do when darkness stops feeling like a preference and starts feeling like a threat, lighting up empty space after empty space. The kitchen. The living room. The hallway lined with framed photos of championship moments and team celebrations.

I stopped in the hallway and looked at them, really looked, for the first time in years.

Confetti. Trophies. Me with my arms raised. Me with a net around my neck. Me shaking hands with a commissioner, a mayor, a man from Reebok whose name I'd forgotten.

Not one person in any of those frames who loved me and wasn't wearing a uniform.

Harper had been carried down this hallway a week ago, naked in my arms, asking me if a single framed photo of a human being I loved would kill me. I'd thought she was being funny.

She'd been describing me.

A museum of accomplishments that belonged to RUSSO #4, and not one frame in it that belonged to Cam.

I sat down at the kitchen table, opened my laptop, and typed the words I'd been avoiding for twelve years.

Coming out as a professional athlete.

Hundreds of results loaded. I read them the way I read game film, looking for patterns, trying to build a picture from the available evidence. Some athletes had lost endorsements. Some hadn't. Some had faced hostility from fans. Others had been celebrated. A handful had seen their careers disrupted. More had found the opposite: freed from the weight of hiding, they'd played better, lived better, and reached the end of their careers with a part of themselves intact that they hadn't known they were slowly surrendering.

No clean pattern. No predictable outcome.

I knew that already. Twelve years in this league had taught me that certainty was a luxury. You made the best decision you could with the information you had, you executed, and you lived with the result.