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As soon as my hands lock around his neck his fingers push into me. “Hawk,” I moan as my head rolls back.

“Fuck, Tessa, I love the way your pussy feels around my fingers. So fucking tight, so warm.” He pumps his fingers as I climb through the ecstasy. “You get off so easily for me, baby. Only me. Only mine.”

There’s no denying him. He’s right. I know deep down in my heart that I can only be this way with him. There isn’t another man for me, and the reality that I may not be able to keep him is like a crushing blow to my heart. But I’m strong, and I will power through the heartache.

“Christ…”

I feel my pussy tighten around his fingers as I come. I need to feel him inside of me. I need to feel his cock before he goes. I need more. With shaky hands, I reach for his jeans and start to undo his button. I rip at the material, trying to release him.

He laughs and stops my movement. “Do you want something?”

I nod.

“Is there something you need?” He tilts his head to the side and tightens his grip around my wrists. When he pushes his jeans down with the help of my hand, I swallow. “There is, right? The something you need? You need this?”

“I need you.”

This is the first time I’ve admitted my need for him. It’s no longer want, a desire, or a yearning. It’s more than that.

I need this man.

I need him in my life, next to me. I need him here when I come home from work. I need him teaching my son how to be a man. But the reality is, the club needs him too. They call, and he goes. It’s as simple as that. He’s torn in two, with one foot in the sands of California and one in the soil of New Mexico. I know when he makes that final decision he’ll leave us. I know he will, it’s going to feel like salt in a wound, one that happens to be in my heart.

My love for him will never be able to compete with the respect he has for his club.

Hawk

My eyes burn in the early morning sun, but I wouldn’t be anywhere else but here. The moment Sin asked me to do this errand with him, I knew there was no way I was going to say no. Not when I wasn’t here three months ago when he could have lost Savannah.

I watch through the windshield as Sin approaches Meredith, Redding’s mom, from behind. She stumbles in surprise when Sin calls her name, and I laugh. That woman is nothing more than riddled nerves now that Lick had his way with her all those months ago. I’m surprised she’s still around here and not someplace else hiding and licking her wounds. She turns towards him, and her hand flies over her heart. He approaches her with caution. His hands fly through the air as he talks. I don’t know what he wants from Meredith. Her son is dead, by Sin’s hand. The only thing still up in the air is her ability to fight for visitation of Grace, and maybe that’s what this is about. Making sure she doesn’t come after what Sin has declared his.

She nods her head one last time before she turns on her heel and leaves Sin standing there. He seems taller, more confident when he turns and heads my way. There aren’t the shadows that I’m used to seeing marring his eyes. For the first time in years, there’s something different. There’s hope.

He drops his ass into the seat of the old charger that belonged to my father. “Where to now?” I ask him.

He turns his head, his lips tug at the corners revealing an honest smile. “Now, I finally get my girls.”

Hawk

Change is inevitable.

Today marks a new beginning for my best friend. His daughter, born prematurely, is coming home, and we have the entire club, both new and old, here to celebrate.

Damn, I wish Tessa was here with me.

“I wish you guys would just fuck already,” I yell towards Lick and Jenni as I walk by to grab a beer from the cooler.

“I thought I was saving myself for you?” Jenni bites back which makes me stop. She’s a feisty bitch, and I love messing with her as much as I like messing with Lick. But most of the time he fucking deserves it.

I drag my gaze along her body, just to screw with Lick. Jenni is grade A prime beef. She’s gorgeous, inside and out, and any man with half a cent would think so. She doesn’t only have a bangn’ bod on her, but she has a genuine heart. But that doesn’t mean shit to me, because the moment that woman took her first step on Fury ground Lick claimed her, even though he hasn’t realized it, yet. I'll be damned if I fuck with another man’s woman, but still, I’ve gotta mess with the big lug.

“Hell, baby, all you gotta do is say the word, and we’ll ditch this party and make one of our own.”

“Step the fuck off, Hawk.”

Bingo. Lick’s reaction is fucking priceless. “Touchy, touchy. No need to get your panties in a twist, man. I’m only messing with ya.” I give Jenni a wink that makes her laugh. “Here.” I toss a beer towards Cut who’s manning the grill. He’s standing with Tiny and Cruise. “How do you feel becoming an uncle?” I ask as I pop open the can.

“Doesn’t feel any different. Just another person to be responsible for.” He tips back his beer.