Page 82 of Accidentally Perfect

Nathan is on his knees with his arms wrapped around my waist; face firmly pressed into my stomach. I feel him begin to shake; probably as the realization that he may be bound to me forever takes hold.

“I’m so sorry, Nathan. I’m sorry this is happening. I’m sorry if this isn’t something you want. I was so stupid to allow this to happen.” I choke back my emotions along with the fear of rejection. I feel so strongly that we have something special. That his love for me is so strong that time doesn’t matter, but I may be wrong. Just like the times before, I may have read him completely wrong.

He looks up at me; his normally honey eyes are now a deep amber. His face is damp and tear-stained. I run my fingers through his hair. “Please, Nathan.” The fear that I’ve made a mistake is substantial.

“Are you really pregnant?” My words failed me; I only have enough strength to nod my head.

“How far along?”

I drop down to my knees facing Nathan. “Stella has determined I’m only a few weeks. Very early stages. Possibly the first time we slept together, but I’m not certain. I’m sorry it came out that way. I’ve wanted to tell you, but I just didn’t know how.”

“What do you mean you didn’t know how?”

“I wasn’t sure how you would react. Our relationship happened so fast, and you’ve been so wonderful and accepting of everything when it comes to me and my life. You’ve been amazing with the girls. But it seems that I come with a lot, there’s more to me than just Laney, you know? We aren’t simple. Nothing about us simple, it’s not just Nathan and Laney. It’s Nathan and Laney and twins. It’s Nathan, and Laney and ex-husbands and ex-boyfriends and apparently crazy ex-girlfriends. It's us with our out of control parents and now. Now its going to be Nathan and Laney and baby, plus twins. I think it’s a little too much, don’t you? I thought this might just push you over the edge.”

“After all that and I’m still here, you thought a baby, my baby would push me over the edge?”

“Yes.” I close my eyes as the tears roll down my cheeks.

“Do you believe me when I tell you that I love you, Laney?” I open my eyes to look at him. “Can you say with one hundred percent certainty that you know I am completely in love with you? Without hesitation, without questions or second guessing?”

I look deep into Nathan’s eyes as he stares back at me. His eyes flick from side to side taking in my face. “Yes, I do.”

“You do?” I nod. “Then you know without a doubt that I’m in this with you. I’m committed to you, and the girls and I'm here for you no matter what may come our way.”

“This wasn’t planned, Nathan. It’s so fast, it’s so, so fast, too fast. Don’t you think?”

“No.” His response is straightforward, without hesitation.

“No? Do you have any idea what the press is going to say about this? Look at my mother and her reactions. She’s just one person. Look how Diane didn’t even believe me.”

“Fuck em, Laney, fuck them all to hell. Do they matter? Do any of them matter?”