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Conversation lowered when she stepped into the bay.

Not stopped. Her crew was too disciplined to make the reaction obvious. Mo began explaining the quint’s aerial inspection to his relief engineer. Priya zipped the medical bag. Jamie checked her locker for a missing glove. Teak argued with the B-shift captain about whether a walking boot counted as a uniform shoe.

Ridge stood at the open compartment of Rescue 12, checking the seal dates on the trauma supplies. She looked up. The bold challenge Cassie had come to expect was gone. Before, Ellie had watched Cassie as if waiting for the ice to crack: boldly, almost playfully, pleased by every small reaction she managed to provoke. Now her gaze moved with unsettling patience. She took in Cassie’s face, her hands, the set of her shoulders. Not staring at the visible flame. Reading the smoke. Checking the roofline. Looking for what the building would not admit was burning.

Cassie had seen her assess structures that way. Ridge never trusted the first thing fire showed her. She did not trust Cassie’s outburst either. She had obeyed it, though. In the two hours since Cassie shut down the conversation, Ridge had not approached Mo again. She had not so much as glanced at the plaque when she crossed the bay. Whatever else Ellie Ridge did with an order, she understood the difference between forcing a door and finding out why it had been sealed. The restraint was worse than another challenge would have been. It gave Cassie nothing to correct. It made Ellie’s attention feel less like curiosity and more like care being offered at a distance.

Good, Cassie told herself. Let her see a hazard and keep her distance.

The thought carried no relief.

Cassie pinned the drill schedule to the board. Her fingers were steady. Behind her, Teak announced that medical accommodations were protected by law and possibly the Constitution. The B-shift captain told her to go home.

“Ridge,” Cassie said. The bay quieted by degrees.

Ellie closed the compartment and faced her. “Captain.”

Cassie had no instruction for her. She had said the name because the weight of Ellie’s attention had become impossible to ignore and because some part of her wanted to know whether the distance she had put back between them would hold. She looked at the inspection tag in Ellie’s hand. “Anything expired?”

“No. Two seals due next shift. I marked them.”

“Good.” The same word as yesterday.

This time, neither of them pretended it was ordinary.

Cassie could feel the crew tactfully finding reasons to look elsewhere. She should dismiss Ridge. She should collect her bag, leave the station, and spend the next ninety-six hours remembering why discipline existed. Ellie remained across the bay, morning light catching in her hazel eyes. Cassie held her gaze. One beat longer than command required. One beat long enough for the gym to return in full: Ellie beneath her, the tap against the mat, the terrible quiet after.

Ellie understood. Caution softened her expression, infinitely harder to defend against than triumph would have been.

Cassie turned away. Not now, she told herself.

The danger was that it no longer sounded like never.

7

ELLIE

The deployment order reached Station 12 at 4:18 on a Tuesday morning. By noon, Ellie understood why nobody called a wildfire a scene; scenes had addresses. They had front doors and curbs where command could stand. Even a warehouse ripping hard enough to stain the harbor sky still occupied a piece of ground a person could walk around.

The Madrone Canyon Fire had been burning for thirty-one hours and had no interest in remaining anywhere. Its smoke column rose beyond two ridgelines, broad at the base and bruised purple where it flattened against the upper air. Engines, crew carriers, water tenders, and dozers crowded the road into incident base. Helicopters crossed overhead with buckets slung beneath them. Every radio frequency seemed occupied by someone naming a place Ellie couldn’t see.

“Well,” Teak said from the rear of the quint. “This seems rude.”

She had been out of the walking boot for eighteen days and had spent seventeen of them objecting to Cassie’s return-to-duty restrictions. Cassie had cleared her for the deployment only after Priya examined the ankle and Teak demonstrated that she could climb Engine 12’s aerial twice without limping.

The mutual-aid request was for seventy-two hours. B shift had been called in to cover Rescue 12 and the house while A shift loaded wildland packs, fire shelters, hand tools, water, and enough food to make the quint smell like a convenience store. Mo took them north as part of a five-engine Santa Vera strike team. The farther they climbed, the less the morning resembled morning. Smoke turned the sun into a red disk and brought darkness back beneath it.

At incident base, Cassie came away from the division briefing with a folded map, a written assignment, and soot settling into the hair at her temples. “West flank, Division Foxtrot,” she said. “Direct line from the old dozer cut to the granite shelf above Crow Wash. Two hand crews are working toward us from the north. Engine 12 will support the progressive hose lay until the road ends.” Her gloved finger found each point on the map. “The meadow behind the dozer cut is our safety zone. Primary escape route is back down our line to the cut. Secondary is the drainage road. Priya, you’re lookout until the county crew relieves you. Nobody loses sight of the person ahead of them, nobody lets a tool get farther than arm’s reach, and nobody makes me ask twice about water.” Her eyes stopped on Ellie for no longer than anyone else.

After the gym, the plaque, and the held gaze across the bay, Cassie had returned to perfect command. The time had passed without another visible crack. She spoke to Ellie when the work required it. She watched her when safety required it. If she ever remembered the mat, she kept the memory somewhere rank could stand on top of it.

Ellie had done the same. Mostly.

They left the quint where the dirt road narrowed, shouldered tools, and climbed. The first quarter mile took them out of the world. The engine disappeared behind smoke and manzanita. Radio traffic thinned beneath the scrape of boots and the chopping rhythm of the saw crew ahead. The slope rose hard enough that every step wanted to slide back half of what it gained.

Ellie took a Pulaski into the tool order behind Teak’s brush hook and ahead of Jamie’s McLeod. The county crew cut and threw the heavier growth. Teak cleared what remained. Ellie broke roots and opened the ground; Jamie scraped the loosened duff away until bare mineral soil showed in an unbroken strip.

Cut. Pull. Scrape. Step. The work reduced thought to muscle and distance to the next three feet. Heat pressed through Ellie’s yellow wildland shirt and settled beneath her helmet. Ash gathered in the sweat at her wrists. The air tasted of burned sage, dust, and the metallic edge of the tool handle against her glove. Somewhere beyond the ridge, the fire made a low, continuous sound unlike the concentrated roar inside a structure. It seemed to come through the ground as much as the air.