“Of course I am.” He kissed her forehead as she snuggled up against him.
Whoever he really was deep down didn’t matter to her. She was only in this for the roof over her head and the warmth in her bed. And maybe for a few laughs.
She was okay enjoying what they had. So long as he didn’t expect anything else.
“So we’re good?” she asked.
“Better than good.”
Better than good sounded pretty damn great.
* * * *
After snuggling with Liss, Gray went to bed in his own room. He needed to put some distance between them. Things were getting…complicated.
Maybe that wasn’t the word. Complicated sounded like a bad thing, and whatever he had with Alyssa was not bad. It was good.
He liked her. A lot. But for her sake, he would keep that to himself. She had made it pretty clear that emotional attachment was off limits. He didn’t want her to leave. It would be impossible to build anything with her if she went back to Albany.
He wasn’t into her just because of the sex, but everything else too. Living with her, cooking with her, watching crap television with her. Everything was better when she was there. Even sleeping.
He tossed and turned a few more times and eventually fell asleep. Not that he stayed that way for very long. He woke with a start when something warm and wet was stroking him. Down there. As he normally did when alone, he had gone to bed nude. Now someone was…He felt hot breath caressing him.
“Liss?”
He felt the warmth recede for a second as the covers pulled back slightly.
“Yeah?” she said as casually as if she was looking up from reading the newspaper instead of servicing him in the best way.
“Just checking.”
She laughed and continued.
“God, you are so good at this.”
“You think so?” she stopped to ask at an inopportune time.
“Yeah. The best part is how you don’t stop to chat.”
She laughed again and went back to her amazing task. But not for long.
“Why didn’t you want to sleep in my bed?” she asked, her voice muffled by the blanket.
“Seriously? We’re going to talk now?”
“You can talk while I finish here.”
“I don’t know.” He closed his eyes unable to concentrate on her question. The pressure was building. He was close. So close.
He moaned and felt Alyssa smile around him. She liked having power over him, he could tell. He didn’t care. He liked it too.
He shouted her name and a few praises to God as he gave in.
He hadn’t even caught his breath when she crawled up beside him and took her spot.
“Can I stay?” she whispered.
“You can do whatever you want.” He didn’t care how long it took to convince her he was worthy of her trust. He wanted her in his life. They would find a way.