Page 67 of Blue Moon

Chapter 30

Sol

A few months later

I’d settled in quite nicely in Sawyer’s home in Pensacola. We still planned to move to San Diego, but his orders were a few months away.

Sawyer was in the process of adopting Neil, though unfortunately due to interstate adoption rules, the little boy still resided in Michigan. Sawyer and I flew up every week on his days off. He was the sweetest little boy, and I was blessed to have him in my life. If Sawyer proposed to me, I would happily raise Neil.

Lila wanted to terminate all parental rights and not have any visitation. I couldn’t fathom wanting to turn my back on my child, but I truly believed all women had the freedom to choose any path they wanted. I didn’t judge Lila. She had never wanted a baby and had done the best she could. But after hearing Sawyer talk about his own mom, I realized that some women weren’t cut out to be mothers. And that was okay. I was just grateful that Sawyer wanted to step up and give this little boy the happy home that Sawyer had never had.

As for me, I had completely retooled my life. I’d applied for graduate school. I wanted to be a Marriage and Family Therapist. Help people like Sawyer. People like Neil. People like me.

After a long social media break, I picked up my phone. But this time it was different. I was wearing sweats and a Blue Angel T-shirt.

I didn’t have a hint of makeup on, my extensions were long gone, and I had even put on some weight since I was no longer consumed with how I would look on camera.

It didn’t matter to me at all.

All that mattered was that Sawyer loved me the way I was.

Just Sol.

Hi Guys!

I know you’re used to seeing me dolled up and glammed, but this is me.

No filter. I wanted to tell you all that everything you had seen in my feed was fake.

I mean the food was real, but I spent hours posing it and even longer doing my makeup. But that isn’t real—a picture perfect life doesn’t exist.

The only thing left is my true feelings, and I have a confession to make.

When I met Sawyer, all I cared about was my image. It was more important for me to get more followers than be happy. But then, I fell in love.

I love him. I love Captain Sawyer Roberts. But this fake life got in the way of real-life feelings. So, don’t be me. Live in the moment. Get off your phone. Go have coffee with a friend. Go hike. Go read a book. And tell someone you love them.

Peace and love. Sol