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“But Daddy wants to hear from your lips. Daddy wants to hear you tell him,” he said.

Raelynn looked up and made eye contact. “And if I tell you, you’re not going to do anything about it because you said we weren’t going to do anything, because today has been very overwhelming. I don’t want to talk about it anymore and get more aroused than I already am. You’re just going to leave me all flustered and needy. Maybe I’ll just touch myself.”

The smile dropped from his face as he looked at her. “You that you’re not allowed to touch yourself.”

“Who said that?” she asked. “I don’t remember you telling me I wasn’t allowed to touch myself. I don’t remember you writing it on your phone or the whiteboard. So I think I can touch myself as much as I want.”

Warning bells went off in her head as he slowly stalked toward her.

Daddy gripped her chin between his forefinger and thumb, tilting her head back so she was looking up at him. “Before your surgery, we decided all your rules from before were the same. I even wrote them down and gave them to you so you would remember. One of those rules was you’re not allowed to touch yourself, and if you do, then there will be consequences. Your pleasure is mine and mine alone. I get to decide when you have a release.”

“That doesn’t seem fair,” she mumbled.

“All you have to do is ask. You’ve asked before, and I’ve always given you pleasure. It might not be right away, but I’ve always given it to you unless you were super naughty,” he pointed out.

She opened and closed her mouth several times before ultimately leaving it shut. He had her there. She had read the text of her rules, and it was on there, but she was hoping he had forgotten.

“Now that we’ve gone over that again, dinner is ready,” he announced as he let her chin go. “Why don’t you go sit at the table while I bring over the food?”

CHAPTER 13

RAELYNN

Tears ran down Raelynn’s face as she looked at Daddy. It had been a full day since her cochlear implant had been activated. To say she was overwhelmed was an understatement. She was exhausted, and all she wanted to do was rip it off her head so that she could have a moment of silence.

She had just finished watching the videos the doctor wanted her to, so that she got used to hearing things. It was a daily exercise, and today was the first day, and she already wanted to throw in the towel.

“What’s wrong, Little Fairy?” Daddy asked.

“I don’t want to do this any longer,” she declared. “I don’t think I can do this any longer. It’s too much. I’m so tired, and I just want to take it off. Can I take it off?”

Daddy sat in front of her on the ground. “I know you don’t, but you have to. You need to put in some hard work in the beginning, and then after that it’ll be better.”

“Can I take it off?” she asked again.

Daddy shook his head. “Not right now. Doctor Peterson said you need to keep it on for as long as possible during the day. But what we can do is sit on the couch and I can hold you so close to me silently. Does that sound okay? Or do you want some Little time, and we just be quiet together, and I’ll take care of you?”

She crawled into Daddy’s lap and snuggled into his chest. What did she want? Rae didn’t want to make any decisions right now.

Daddy hummed. “How about I just take control, and you can go into Little space if you want? How does that sound?”

She nodded and closed her eyes.

“Such a good Little Fairy,” he whispered and kissed the top of her head. “And if you want to go non-verbal, then you can. Daddy is going to take care of you, no matter what. But if you do, I want you to know that if you try to take off the external processor, there will be consequences. Do you understand?”

She sighed. “Yes.”

“Good. Now, we haven’t talked about punishments yet, what you are okay with now, and what is a hard limit. Do you want to do that now, or do you want to wait, and if you do anything bad, the punishment will happen later?”

Rae wiggled in his lap as unease filled her.

“Tell Daddy,” he encouraged her.

“I don’t want to wait,” she wailed out of nowhere. “I don’t want to wait for a punishment because then the icky feelings won’t go away and will grow in my stomach. What if it grows so much that it plants something, and then I’ll need surgery or something? But I also don’t want to have the anxious feeling of not knowing when it comes.”

“What happened?” Daddy asked. “What did that man do to you?”

Raelynn flinched and pushed her face into his chest. When they had been together in high school, she liked not knowing when the punishment was coming. While the guilt built, Daddy also knew when to catch her off guard and let her release all her emotions. But now… now she couldn’t bear the thought of waiting and not knowing when it would come.