Page 173 of Sour Notes

Saturday, May 18, 2013

You looked amazing tonight. I was so proud walking into prom with my arm around you. The sparkly white dress you wore made you look like an angel. Just wish I’d gotten to dance with you before Pete came and stole you away.

Lucky fucker. S.

Tears blur the words together as I drop the note in the box and pick up another.

This one brighter. More recent.

Saturday, November 1, 2025

I told you you looked fine tonight.

You didn’t. You looked phenomenal.

I was just being a jealous prick. S.

I gasp, my hand flying to my mouth. That was the night I got dressed up with Haven to go on that stupid date Mom set up for me. Before all of this started.

Eagerly, I snatch another two.

Halloween 2025

I was weak. I broke my sex ban to fuck you tonight. My angel on the deck. I’m so sorry I hurt you. I never meant to take advantage of our friendship. It’s the one thing that matters most to me. S.

January 17, 2025.

We kissed. We finally kissed, and it was worth waiting twenty-odd years for, even though you ran out of the restroom on me. I wish I’d brought you home and fucked you in my bed for our first time though. S.

My whole body trembles as I grab note after note. There must be hundreds here from various stages of our life. Some just saying I looked pretty. Some with memories of things we did together.

Our friendship, his love, meticulously annotated through his eyes over the years.

And I threw him away, so damn certain that Deputy Heartthrob was incapable of love and commitment.

He’s been the one most committed to me all along.

Collapsing onto my ass, now totally oblivious to the webs and dust all over the floor, I scoop the rest of the notes into the box so I can bring it to my room with me.

I have to fix this.

I need to make it right.

He’s not going to hurt me. I know that now.

It’s on me to prove to him that I can love him the way he deserves. And I think I’m gonna need some help.

Me

Hey boo, can you do me a favor and ask Axel to find out if Swayze is still planning on going to the fundraiser tomorrow?

Haven

Pretty sure they’re together now actually. On it!

How come? Everything ok?

Me