Page 48 of Stag

“Stag, it’s nothing to be ashamed of. It’s actually really special, beautiful even.”

“The fact that all women think I’m repugnant and won’t touch me with a ten foot bargepole? Yeah, I should put it on a fucking t-shirt, although those fuckers didn’t need me to. They knew. How the fuck did they know?”

I pressed my fingers over his lips.

“Shush.” The irony wasn’t lost on me. The fact that I had to silence a man I couldn’t even hear, but I wanted him to listen to me for the moment.

“Stag, I like you, and I don’t think less of you for this. In fact, I think it makes you even more sexy to me. You’d be all mine. You’d be with me first, you’d… you’d be just mine, do you see?”

He swallowed hard, something I saw in the way his neck flexed and his head nudged up a touch. He looked stunned, his mouth trying to open beneath my fingers.

“Don’t speak, just listen,” I said, moving my hand away from his mouth, surprised he hadn’t tried licking my fingers or something. Most men would have. Most men would have done something, but he didn’t. It was important. It meant he was looking at me as someone rather than the holes he could plunder, and exploit. He saw me.

“I want to be your first,” I said, nodding slowly as I spoke, like I was trying to surreptitiously encourage him to say yes.

Chapter Nineteen

The last thing I expected, when I told her how utterly pathetic I was, was for her to say she wants me. Not only wants me, but wants to be my first. Jesus. The fact that she even knew my big secret was humiliating as fuck, but her words soothed my mortification just enough that I didn’t run before I made a bigger dick of myself. She didn’t seem as horrified as I’d expected the first time I told someone how pathetic I was.

“What?”

She smiled, reaching up to press her palm against my cheek, her thumb gently brushing my skin.

“I think this is incredibly sexy, Stag. I think you are incredibly sexy, and I really want to be with you. I think we’d be really good together.”

I swallowed against the sudden lump in my throat, because she wasn’t laughing at me, or mocking me. She was… she was hitting on me. That was over simplifying things, but that’s what it came down to. I’d spent my teenage years and early twenties trying to hit on women, striking out time and time again, but now she was the one trying to entice me, trying to encourage me, and as much as I was dying of embarrassment, I was also feeling like she’d given me a little of my dignity back.

She was saying she found it attractive. That she found me attractive, and just like she’d acted before, I had no idea what she was seeing in me, but it was something of a relief, to know that she could see something. Whatever the fuck it was.

“Why?”

She giggled, patting my cheek lightly. “I just told you why, Stag. Take a deep breath, and hear me. I want you. Maybe you haven’t done this before, but I know you’ll know what to do. It’s instinct. It’s about doing the most natural thing in the world. I trust you, so I guess I’m asking if you trust me too?”

I nodded immediately, like a fucking bobblehead. What the hell? I was acting like… like a pathetic little virgin, duh. I opened my mouth and she shook her head.

“This isn’t the time for words, Stag. Unless you’re saying no, I want you to just be with me. Feel everything.” She lifted her jumper off and tossed it aside, reaching for the buttons at the top of the long sleeved shirt she wore beneath it. Fuck me, she was stripping off for me.

At last, a woman wanted me to see her naked, and actually knew I was watching. The women in porn movies assume, but don’t know who’s watching them in real time. Hell, once I’d even subscribed to one of those stupid things where they strip off and simulate all kinds of things on a camera for you. Nowhere near as good as this right here, where a woman was in the moment with me. She was so beautiful, and her confidence was shining out as she lifted off her long sleeved shirt too, revealing her in a bra. Pale pink, and so innocent looking, but the look in her eyes was anything but.

“Do you want to touch me, Stag?” Fuck yeah. I wanted to touch her all over. I nodded and she grabbed one of my hands, lifting it to her breast, settling it over her warm skin, partially covered by the thin silky cup of the bra.

Holy shit. I’m touching a tit. I’m touching her fucking boob, and she’s letting me. More than that, she’s the one making me touch it. I moved my thumb back and forth, and she hissed in a breath as it brushed against the side of her nipple. She made that sound because of me. Fucking hell. Is this really happening?

“Fuck…” I whispered, brushing her nipple again, my eyes on hers as she shivered at my touch. I made her fucking shiver. I wanted to make her do more things, wriggle, giggle, shudder, moan, sigh, gasp, whimper, scream. All the fucking things.

“Stag, I have two breasts, you know,” Claudia said with a soft giggle as she reached for my other hand, and although it was embarrassing to have to be reminded of that fact, I was already on my way there. A breast in each hand. This is why life fucking exists. Breasts.

I was painfully hard, so fucking horny, and I felt like I’d lose it over something as simple as touching breasts, but here we are. I’m a twenty-four year old virgin man, who just got to touch tits for the first time, and even more than that, it’s her. The woman I’ve been obsessing over for weeks. The intensity was really killing me.

The thought of doing more with her, touching more of her, kissing, licking, sucking parts of her, finally sinking deep inside her pussy, finally becoming a real man… yeah, that was about to break me long before we got anywhere near that stuff.

“What’s wrong?” Claudia cupped my face in both hands, as my own fingers stilled against her soft skin. She saw so much because she had to, because the lack of hearing made her focus laser sharp.

“Jesus. This is so fucking embarrassing.” I couldn’t calm my ragged breathing, as my body threatened to rebel, and ruin this momentous fucking experience.

“Tell me.”

“I’m about to fucking come in my pants, and we’re not even both undressed yet. I’m such a fucking pussy.”