“What kind of trouble?”
“The kind I can’t explain on your doorstep.”
She steps back. “Inside.”
I usher Robin in first.
The house smells like old wood and flowers. The entryway is tiled in faded blue and white.
I look away from the stairs.
Too late.
The memories are already invading.
My mother, barely out of her teens, laughing in this doorway, younger than I am now. My mother brushing my hair back. My mother telling me to wait in the kitchen and not speak to anyone unless Valentina said I could. My mother disappearing upstairs with men.
Valentina shuts the door and locks it. “Tell me what you need, mijo.”
“We need a place to lie low,” I say, “until I figure out our next move.”
She offers a wide smile. “Of course. We have plenty of empty rooms tonight. I’ll have clean sheets put in one of them.”
My stomach tightens.
A room. In this house. A place where my mother sold herself so I could eat, so I could have shoes, so I could be sent away from rooms like these and become nothing like the men who walked into them.
I became worse instead.
The irony is almost funny.
Almost.
“Thank you,” I say.
“If you are not together,” Valentina says, “I should prepare two rooms.”
“Yes,” I say. “That would—”
“No,” Robin cuts in. “I want to stay with him.”
21
ROBIN
The words are out of my mouth before I realize I’m saying them.
“I want to stay with him.”
Cruz is staring at me.
So is Señora Valentina.
And of the two, Cruz is the one I can’t look away from.
For one insane second, he looks almost happy.
Heat climbs up my neck.