Heat floods my face immediately, proving her point.
“He’s a monster,” I mutter.
Even saying it feels weak.
“Monsters can still be beautiful."
The image of him flashes through my mind instantly: blood-spattered, furious, terrifying. And yes, beautiful.
“He’s not like us,” I say quietly.
“No,” Marissa agrees. “But he looks at you like you’re important.”
I laugh under my breath. “He barely knows me.”
“Maybe that doesn’t matter.”
She says it so easily that I know she still believes in things like love and fate. I wish I could.
“Only one of us survives this place,” I remind her softly.
Her smile fades. “I know.”
The silence that follows feels heavier than before.
“If it comes down to it,” I say eventually, “I want you to live.”
Her eyes widen immediately. “Luceris—”
“I mean it.”
“That’s insane.”
“Probably.”
I force a smile I don’t entirely feel. “But I couldn’t live with myself otherwise.”
Emotion finally cracks through the composure she’s been clinging to all evening. She curls into me, trembling slightly.
“I’m scared,” she whispers. “What if I freeze?”
I wrap my arms around her automatically. “You won’t.”
“But what if I do?”
I close my eyes briefly. “Then I’ll protect you.”
The promise settles heavily between us. It’s too large. Too impossible.
But I mean it anyway.
We sit together beneath the fractured ceiling for a long time after that, tracing the glowing fractures overhead.
For a little while, I almost believe survival is still possible.
I expect to dread dinner, but the communal hall has a strange calm about it. Tables are set with finery: bowls of soup, thick-cut bread, and ornate glass goblets filled with the clearest water I’ve ever seen.
The hunger twisting inside me is for more than food. I want noise. Company. Anything that makes this place feel less like a tomb.