of canned green beans and peaches in syrup
and boxes of animal crackers. I would go
down there to read and escape
the North Carolina mountain summer heat,
which at the time I thought was awful
but now I know
isn’t anything at all. I haven’t spoken
to my mamaw in years. I hadn’t let myself
think of her in a long time. I miss her. I love
her. She loved me. I believe
she’s still alive. I want to see her again.
And that’s when I knew that I had
my destination. I’d been taught
to treat dreams as dispatches from a spirit realm.
It happened that way a lot—one of us would arrive
at the morning circle
and announce they had dreamt of palms
and waves lapping on a warm shore, and we would set
a course for Gulf Shores, or Malibu, or
Destin, to learn the dream’s meaning.
(Very rarely did it prove to be anything real.)
In the morning I’ll shower again.
Pack my things on my back
and find a way into town. Seek
a railyard and hop a freight train south.
Wind my way to Murphy, North Carolina,
and mamaw’s. I’d never traveled that way
before but we’d had people sojourn
with us who had; they told me how. And I speak
the secret language of the vagabond