Page 69 of Session 25

“So how does her cervix and uterus look? Is the placenta placement aligned correctly?” I had a list of questions to ask the doctor once they had completed their examination. Koi looked over at me with her nose flared.

Yesterday after I had gone home, I did some research of my own on failed pregnancies and how to have a healthy one. As a man who always wanted to be a father, I was gonna make sure that Koi was gonna get the best treatment possible. Since she wasn’t my wife, I was paying for this visit out of pocket.

She was gonna go to a woman’s clinic she was familiar with, but I wasn't accepting that. Koi knew them so she was comfortable, but I didn’t like the idea that they couldn’t find the cause of her miscarriages.

“I see someone has been doing their homework.” The doctor looked pleased. “And as for all of your questions, so far the baby is going fine.”

“I’m the one who is carrying the baby, not him. So why the fuck are you telling him everything and not addressing it to me?”

“I’m sorry Doctor. She’s hormonal.”

“Fuck you.” Her attitude was pissing me off, but because I didn’t want to show my ass in front of the doctor, so I asked if we could have a moment.

“Are you serious right now? You’re upsetting yourself and the baby.” I stood in front of the bed. “You wanna be mad at me? Cool. But that woman has a job to do, and you’re acting out. Having a tantrum is uncalled for.”

“I don’t care what you think, Roman. You ain’t shit and then want to come in here and act like you know my body, you don’t!”

“I didn’t say I did. I’m here learning. Give me grace, dammit.” She sucked her teeth. “There are women who don’t even have their baby fathers around, and I’m here trying to make this easier on you.”

“How? By going to see your wife? Not following my wishes? Huh? How?”

“Koi, let that hurt go, mama, please.” I grabbed her hands. “I’m not gonna hurt you.”

“But you already have.” She grabbed her hand, wiping her face. “We just need to co-parent, please.”

“If that will make you have a smooth and healthy pregnancy, then I’m game.” Although I didn’t want to just co-parent, I had to respect her.

The rest of the appointment ran smoothly. I watched as Koi drove off in her car and then me in mine. Shit was weird, but it was what it was. I wasn’t one to make her life a living hell. I only wanted to be present in all that involved the baby.

I met up with my boy Aaron. He was at the gym, blowing off some steam.

“So wassup? You ain’t never sounded as stressed as you are.”

“Koi is pregnant. I ain’t telling people because she’s had hard pregnancies, but I’m letting you know. She’s been on one, and then Rae just won’t accept that Koi doesn’t want her.”

“Damn. So, you getting a divorce?”

“That’s the plan, but I need it to be a healthy divorce. You know I’ve known Rae for more than ten years. She is still the homie.”

“I get that. You think she is okay with a divorce, though?”

“I mean she mentioned it. She doesn’t want me, she wants my baby mama,” I chuckled, lifting weights, “and my baby mama wants to just co-parent.”

“Nah. That ain’t right.” Aaron knew my thoughts on having kids. I was the Godfather to his two sons, and I have shown up for them from the time his wife asked me to be their Godfather. Koi trying to take that away from me wasn’t sitting right in my spirit.

“I already know, but I know how to handle her. She ain’t used to a nigga showing up for her. I gotta fight her with being kind.”

“I’m glad I’m married cus dating is too damn crazy and these women are crazier.”

“You're right about that, but hold on, gimme a minute.” I held up my finger, answering my phone.

“Wassup.”

“I’m ready to give you a divorce and move on as friends. I don’t want beef.”

“Good. Neither do I.”

Session 25