I kiss and suckle at her, making her writhe and squeal. I wrap my arm over the top of her thigh and press down on her pubic bone, giving her pressure but also holding her still.
“Greedy girl,” I chastise.
“Ferrin, please,” she begs, and I smile against her.
“Please what, darlin’?” I blow cool air on her clit. “Please eat your cunt till you see stars? Please fuck you with my giant cock? Please make you come over and over before I tell you that I love you?”
“What?!” she cries, but I suck her clit between my lips and nibble on it with my teeth. “Holy shit,” she pants. “Ferrin?”
Her hands tangle through my hair, and she tries to pull me back, but it’s not happening. Not yet. I work her cunt with my tongue, lips, and teeth. I eat her like I’ll never get the chance again. I eat her until her thighs tremble against my face and her heels scrape up and down my back, and she holds me right on her clit.
Her pussy flutters around me, and I push two fingers into her so I can feel it. So she can feel me and know this is only a taste of what comes next.
“Ah! Fuck!” she cries, moaning and thrashing. She covers her face with her pillow and comes so fucking hard all over me. My lips, cheeks, and chin are covered in her. I hold her down and lick her through it, pushing my fingers deep inside her and spreading them apart so she feels the stretch.
On a final sigh, she drops into the bed and goes limp. With a breathless laugh, I give her one final lick that makes her shudder before I kiss my way up her body until I reach the pillow. I pull it away, and her eyes blink up at me. My heart thumps in my chest. I dip to kiss her before I lower my weight onto her, our legs tangled and our chests flush.
I prop myself up and stare at her a smile on my face as I say, “I love you,” and push inside of her at the same time. Her eyes glass over and her hands wrap around my back, holding me to her. “I love you.” I roll into her, digging my knees between her thighs and pressing in deeper. I hold still when I’m in as far as I can go. “I love you more than anything in this world.” I shiver with goose bumps and lick at her tears as they fall. “I love you with everything that I am. I love you completely. You’ve rewritten every part of me into the best version I never imagined I was capable of being. I want to marry you. I want to give you babies. I want to make your every dream come true because that’s exactly what you’ve done for me.”
Slowly I pull back only to thrust back in.
Her fingers comb through my hair, and she holds the side of my face. “I love you too. I’ve loved you since you gave me that first arrogant boy smile, and my heart shook in my chest, knowing it was in trouble.” Her knees hike up, and she starts meeting my thrusts in perfect counterpoint. Her hands slip to my ass, and she holds me there, pushing me in, holding me where she wants me. “I love you for showing me how to live and making it okay for me to be fearless and afraid at the same time. I love that you stayed even when you didn’t think you should. I love that you fought for us and continue to fight for us every day. I love watching you with the children and seeing the way you smile and laugh with them.” She angles up to kiss and nibble on my chin. “And I’m glad you want to have babies with me because I’m pregnant.”
“What?” I freeze and draw back, blinking down at her.
She shrugs. “When the doctor removed my cast, I asked about birth control. But it’s too late. He did a test and…” She trails off, looking nervous and uncertain.
“Shit.” I laugh. “You didn’t say anything.”
“I needed the night to think about it. And you were busy all afternoon and evening, so it wasn’t a great time.”
“I suppose that’s what we get for fucking like mad and not using any protection.”
“Are you upset?”
“Upset? No.” Worried? Yeah.
I smile and kiss her lips. I kiss her and kiss her because I don’t have words yet. A baby. I put a baby in her belly. My baby. I can be a good dad. The dad I never had. I’ll teach my kid how to fight and be strong and read people and be cautious. But Desta will teach it how to smile and laugh and be brave. She’ll teach it how to love. And no one will ever hurt it. Not even me.
“A baby.” I kiss her neck and work my way back down her body because when I kissed my way up, I didn’t know my child was inside of her. I reach her soft, still flat belly and run my hands over it. I glance up at her, my heart hammering in my chest so hard I can barely breathe. “A baby?”
Fuck, I’m about to cry, and I don’t think I’ve ever fucking cried.
She nods and bites her lip.
I pull out of my girl so I can kiss her stomach. My nose nuzzles back and forth, and yeah, I’m fucking crying.
“Oh, god. Ferrin!” She laughs out a wet sob, her hands playing with my hair.
“It’s going to be perfect, isn’t it? Whatever it is, however it is, it’ll be perfect.”
She nods and pulls me back up to her. I push back inside of her and kiss her sweet lips. “It will be, but I’m scared. It means there’s more to worry about. More to protect.”
It’s true, and it terrifies me too. “No one was going to hurt you again, and they sure as fuck aren’t now.”
She sighs. “You can’t control that.”
I can. I will.