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“What’s your question here, Joe? You have two men you really like. The sex is good, I assume. It sounds like things are great for you.”

When he put it that way, it sounded pretty great.

“I have this.” I pushed my collar aside and showed him the mark that both men left. “Both men know about each other and react differently, but they seem to accept we aren’t exclusive. This, though.” I pointed to my neck. “Dusty saw it, and he started asking me about what I did with Gentry. Mont.” I was so embarrassed and didn’t know if I could say it out loud.

“What’s wrong?” I covered my face, feeling mortified. Thank goodness Montgomery Wilson was one of the most popular rock stars over the last ten years. Before falling for my brother, he had been with men, many men, and what I was going through was probably not on his top ten.

“I shared the details with Dusty, and it turned him on. He wanted to know more. But.” This was the part that got me. “It turned me on, too. I liked that he left a mark on top of the one that Gentry left.” I didn’t even know how I had gotten through the explanation. “Mont, I’m a pervert.”

“Whoa, whoa, whoa. You most certainly are not.” I looked up.

“What?” He chuckled.

“Joe, it sounds like you have a very fulfilling and wonderful sex life.”

Now I was confused

“I liked it. Being with both men is different. I want to be with them both. The worst part is, I don’t want them to be with someone else, though. I’m so hypocritical and weird.”

“Let’s take this one thing at a time. There is a thing called cuckolding, which is where a person likes hearing, watching, or even reliving what their lover does with another partner. It’s a fetish and not abnormal. The fact that you two got off reliving and discussing what you did with Gentry isn’t perverted.”

“Really?” The weight on my shoulders lifted a little. This was something other people did and enjoyed. At least I wasn’t some sort of deviant.

“Yes, really. So you can let that go. You and Dusty should do some research together to enhance your sexual experience. And you don’t want them with other people even though you are with them both?”

“Yeah.” I sighed. “Both of them are doing things to my heart, and I'm trying not to get attached, but they are so different from each other. Different. Great.”

“You said they know about each other. As I told you before, be careful with your heart.”

“I know. Thinking about them with someone else makes me feel sick. I’m all fucked up about these guys. I needed to get it off my chest. I’m sorry for coming over so early, but I knew you would understand.”

I put my hand on Drake under my shirt. It always amazed me how the dragons could calm me with their presence. It was like their energy flowed through you. They made the world a more peaceful place.

“I’m not sure if that is a compliment or not. I do understand, though. A few men have shaped my life, but no one has changed me like your brother. Are you having feelings for these men? Also, and don’t get crazy on me, but have you considered maybe a triad?”

I knew my mouth fell open. “I couldn’t do that. We have this whole sex with each other thing, but I don’t think they have feelings for me. It would be weird. Not something for me.” I avoided saying I was starting to have feelings for them.

Montgomery looked at me and nodded. “Okay, then.” Something about that response seemed like he didn’t believe me. “I’m going to remind you to be careful with your heart, but nothing about what you are doing is bad or wrong, Joe.”

Both of these men were incredible in their own way. I liked being around them, and we had fun with each other—the sex was a bonus.

“I’m not sure why I needed your validation. I have to admit I am confused, but really happy. These guys are so great to be around. Well, you know Dusty.”

He smiled. “I do know Dusty. If he is coming back to you, there is something there. Be careful not to hurt him. There is a lot of damage there, and he spent a lot of time using his body to find peace.” I understood what he was saying. “Be honest. Communicate.”

“I am doing both of those things.” I hope this doesn’t all blow up in my face. “Do you think I should stop being with them both? Or pick one?”

He sat and looked at me for a while. Drake crawled out of my shirt and went over to his companion, climbing on top of Drachen, making a dragon pile. He looked down for a moment, and I could see him relax.

“I can’t answer that question for you, Joe. Do what the three of you think is right. If they know about each other, then I think you owe it to yourself to get to know them, and if feelings develop, be honest about them.”

“I should let you get back to your husband. I’m sorry I did it this way, I just needed to talk.” We both stood up, and he gave me a hug.

“You are family, and I know that all of this is still new for you. The way you were raised didn’t expose you to life. You sure are jumping in with both feet, but I got you.”

It made me feel good to know I had family. It was because of this man that I no longer lived in that repressed world that my parents had created. “Thank you.”

“Now go. Have fun. Enjoy all the sex you can, protect yourself, and everyone’s hearts.”