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“Why?” Oscar asked. When I looked at him, he looked hurt, and his aura seemed to agree with that.

“I did not mean to make you uncomfortable. I know I’m not experienced in these things. I’ll ask that you are patient and give me time to learn what it is that you enjoy.”

Oscar growled, and I’ll admit that it was adorably cute to hear his wolf side come out. I couldn’t wait to meet his wolf and thought that perhaps I was about to because he seemed to be struggling at the moment. Instead, I found the front of my coat grabbed, and Oscar started walking, pulling me along with him toward our house.

“Did I do something to upset you?” I asked as my mate continued to pull me along behind him. It was easy enough to keep up with his steps, but he wasn’t speaking, and that had started to worry me. I went through everything I could think of that I could have done wrong, and the only explanation I could come up with was that I’d pushed for too much too fast. I knew about his past and that I would possibly have to wait for some time before he was ready for me to claim him.

Oscar finally stopped when we were standing in front of our house. The snow was falling harder now, and I wondered how much more we would get. Would Oscar want to go out in it tomorrow? Would he talk to me? He was currently glaring up at me, and I had no idea why.

“Are you going to talk? What did I do wrong? I understand I’m not the greatest at that stuff, but I am trying.”

“That’s the thing, Monroe. I’m not upset. You did nothing wrong. And I want nothing more than to be inside our house with you when you do that again and again. For the first time in I don’t know how long, I felt something. Something here,” Oscar said as he touched his chest and then moved his hand down his torso. “I want us. I want to be yours, but I’ll wait if you’re still unsure.”

Unsure? “Oscar, I would love to call you mine. I know you have a somewhat difficult past that wasn’t of your own choosing, but that doesn’t bother me. You’re mine, and I want nothing more than to be yours.”

“Then take me inside and claim me.”

I took several deep breaths before I nodded once, and after taking Oscar’s hand in mine, I walked inside our house with my mate by my side.

Chapter 8

Oscar

My wolf was pushing me hard, and I had no complaints about his stance on Monroe claiming us. Especially after that sweet yet arousing kiss. Who knew that a hesitant kiss could be such a turn-on? I hadn’t, but now I did, and I wanted more. So much more.

It had been quite some time since I’d even thought about being intimate with anyone, and I was happy that it was my mate who would be my first after everything that had happened to me. My first and last, because this would be for the rest of our lives, and I already knew I needed to have Alpha Forest give his brother thanks from me. I had no doubt that Monroe was exactly who I would need in my life. He was generous, strong, and patient.

Despite all of that, I was a bit nervous. It couldn’t be helped though. I knew Monroe wasn’t experienced in anything of this sort, and I wanted him to have a wonderful experience. But I didn’t exactly have a whole lot of knowledge either.

The moment we entered the house and the door closed behind us, a heavy feeling of nerves hit. I was definitely nervous about the outcome. I wanted this to be good for Monroe. I wanted his first time to be everything and more.

“I can sense your nervousness. We don’t have to do this. We can wait until you’re absolutely ready.”

I shook my head. “I’m ready now. I just have all of these expectations on myself to make this perfect for you. I’m not sure I can, but you deserve that for this.”

Monroe stopped me with a hand on my shoulder. He gently turned me to face him, and I somehow got lost in his eyes. They were mesmerizing.

“Oscar, I’m with you. It’s already going to be amazing. Stop putting so much pressure on yourself. It’s true I’ve never actually done what we’re about to do, but I do know the mechanics of how it’s done. Just like here, we do have a class on it when we’re in school.”

Of course they did. Didn’t everyone? I took a deep breath and nodded. Monroe grinned and then took my hand and led me up the stairs.

“Do we need to do anything first? Maybe shower? Or take a bath? Something like that?” I asked. I quickly realized that now I was stalling. Monroe picked up on it immediately and sent me a glance while we continued on up the stairs. Once we were in the bedroom, he led me to the bed and had me sit on the side. He knelt down in front of me, taking both of my hands in his, and brought them to his mouth and kissed them gently.

“You are obviously nervous, and I understand. I’ve said it many times: I can wait, and we will go at your pace, Oscar. The most important thing to me is that you are ready and comfortable.”

My wolf whined in my mind. I tried to hush him, but he wasn’t listening. He was whimpering and calling out, wanting our mate to claim us. I knew I needed to not only trust my wolf but my mate as well, and now I had to figure out how to reassure Monroe that I was ready.

“I am. I want this. I’m obviously nervous. I want this to be good for you.”

Monroe raised an eyebrow at me. “But not for you? Do you believe you’re not going to find pleasure in what we’re about to share?”

I wanted to. I’d very rarely enjoyed sex. Obviously I didn’t when I’d been held captive, but that wasn’t the extent of my experience. Although, I wasn’t sure I should really call it “experience.”

“I want to. You’re my mate, Monroe. I know that alone will be pleasurable. I can’t help but be a bit nervous though.”

“We’ll go slow, all right?”

“Slow? Meaning?”