Page 73 of Tears of Gold

“I can’t. I’m so scared. I went to that private doctor the other day and insisted she give me an ultrasound.”

Abi gives me a sad look. “Expect to feel like that about a million times, but you can’t keep going to the doctors. You just have to believe it will all be okay.”

“I’m trying.”

“Want me to come up? We haven’t spent any time together in ages.”

I groan. “I’d love that, but we are having a celebration dinner tonight for Eli winning Melanie Duncan’s case.”

“Oh right.”

There’s an awkward pause. Oh.

“You guys could come up if you want? I could ask Miss Beesley to make up a couple of the other rooms and the kids could have one and you and Adam the other.”

“No, it’s fine, Faith.”

I sit up making sure I hold my phone higher, so I don’t give her anymore reasons to hang up other than the fact I’m a bitch. “No, seriously, it would be amazing. The kids would love it and I’d love to see you. We haven’t told anyone about the baby, and I could do with a hug from my best friend.” I start to cry, no acting needed.

“Oh, don’t start that crying shit with me.”

“Please come.”

“What time is dinner?”

“Seven? But I could make it earlier if that’s better for the kids?”

“And are you actually cooking?” She raises an eyebrow, a smile growing. She’s coming around.

“Hell, no. I would never inflict that on anyone.”

“'Kay. We will be up about six. If that’s okay with Her Ladyship.”

“Shut your face.”

She grins. “Can’t wait to see you.”

“Me too. Right I’ve got to get out this bath and get going.”

“Where are you going?”

I need something to wear.

Saskia is waiting for me at Harrods. Clearly, it’s her shop of choice. “I’m not going in there. I’ll go to Harvey Nicks but only if you twist my arm.” I grin as I walk up to her and give her a hug.

“Peter loved Harvey Nicks.”

I nod and a lump forms in my throat. Let’s get drunk and prank call Elijah. I shake it away. I can’t even get drunk today.

“So exactly how much clothing allowance do I get?”

“More than you could probably spend.” Saskia chuckles. “I could give it a good go though.”

“Oh, I reckon we could spend it. I need a whole new wardrobe.”

“Why? Your clothes are mostly great, although we need to get rid of those linen trousers you wore all summer. I’ve seen vegetables bagged up with more style than that.”

I roll my eyes, a little flutter building in my tummy. “They aren’t going to fit for much longer.”