“I did not say you were,” Luka says.
“You thought it in a suit,” I say.
His eyes warm a little, and for a moment everything between us feels almost normal.
After breakfast, I take my laptop to the small sitting room attached to my bedroom. Mirov said limited screen time, so I set a timer, which feels ridiculous but also makes Luka less likely to stand in the doorway and accuse me of harming my brain.
I start transferring files to Meredith. At first, it’s simple.
Calendar exports. Vendor sheets. Meeting notes. Contact lists. Hotel preferences. Investor briefing decks. Procurement timelines. Confidential routing notes. Gala follow-up. Legal correspondence flags. Board materials. Car schedules. Security-adjacent instructions that I was never supposed to call security-adjacent. Flowers, gifts, seating, apologies, coded reminders for Luka’s temper, and tiny notes about which people should never be allowed near each other without someone from legal present.
Then I keep going.
And going.
By the time I reach the third folder, I start to understand what Meredith meant.
I was doing too much.
Some of it was my fault. I liked being useful. I liked knowing things before other people did. I liked being the person who could make chaos behave. I liked that Luka depended on me, even when I pretended I hated it.
That last thought is dangerous, so I push it away.
Luka comes in just as I’m attaching another file.
“You have been on that for forty minutes,” Luka says.
I say, “Mirov said an hour.”
“I say forty minutes is enough,” Luka says.
I look at him over the laptop screen. “Mirov outranks you medically.”
“I outrank him in this house,” Luka says.
“That’s not how healthcare works,” I say.
He walks closer and looks at the open folder list. His face changes slightly.
“What?” I ask.
He says, “Meredith was right.”
I look back at the screen. “About what?”
“You were doing the work of four people,” Luka says.
I shut the laptop halfway. “Don’t make that face.”
“What face?” Luka asks.
“The face where you realize something and decide to fix it with money, force, or a meeting,” I say.
He says, “All three are useful.”
I say, “Luka.”
He sits across from me, careful with his shoulder. “Why did you not tell me?”