Page 103 of Call Me Baby 2: Side B
“but don’t you dare keep me.
“Hold me… but don’t ever touch me.
“Love me…” my whisper breaks.
“Even if it kills you…
“Even if it kills me…
“Even if I kill it…
“But never fuckin’ say it.”
My pulse panics in my bare throat—
steam off my skin, cold on my face.
It’s the closest I’ve come to feeling
everything and nothing
at the same time.
Naked,
floating,
gone.
“Would’ve been a beautiful funeral, though. Allison Taylor—mourning the only boy she let in,” I barely get out. “Didn’t have enough time together. Never would’ve had enough time together.
“I’d wear black.
“Hold your stiff hand,
“whisper ‘I’ll see you soon…’
“be there for you
“the whole way through.
“Bury you without the chain.
“Sneak it off
“while kissing your cold lips.
“Throw it at Mrs. Robinson.
“Sit alone in the back.
“Get drunk after.
“Fuck a nobody just to stop feeling you.
“Still feel you anyway.”
One tear slips out.
