“Tell me what was in it, anyway.”
“Evidence that Emeka Conti and your father were not rivals,” she said. “They were partners. Six years — trafficking, laundering, political cover at the state level, two packs running one operation, and pretending in public to be at each other’s throats. Marr brokered it. Marr kept the books.” She set the wine down. “Then your father decided the Conti share was a cost he was done carrying. He engineered the falling-out, dressed an extermination up as a territorial war, and burned the Conti estate down with the family inside it. The fire the Contis have built thirty-four years of holy grievance on top of.” She looked at me steadily. “It wasn’t an attack on an innocent family by a rival. It was one partner murdering the other and writing the history afterward. And Marr has the originals — contracts, recordings, the lot — because a broker who keeps everyone’s books knows that the books are the only thing that keeps him breathing once the partnership ends.”
The architecture of it settled into place in my chest. Not the details — I’d half-known the details. The use of it. Marr’s file didn’t just damn my father. It dismantled the Conti grievance from underneath. Edoardo had spent thirty-four years raising a son to believe the Zorander name was an enemy that had to be erased, and the foundation of all of it was a lie his own father had told him: that the Contis were victims, when they had been partners in the same filth, betrayed by an associate they’d chosen to lie down with.
Both families. Both legacies. The same ash.
“That’s what makes them stop,” I said. Half to myself.
“That’s what makes them able to stop,” Sera said. “Whether they choose to is a different question, and not one I’d put money on. Grief that old has its own gravity. But yes — that file is the only thing in the world that turns this from a debt into a conversation.” She crossed to the printer, came back, and set a single sheet face-down on the table between us. “Marr’s been waiting eight months for the right person to give the originals to. I’ve been holding this for him, because I’m the one piece of the Conti structure he trusts, God help us both. I think you’re the person he’s waiting for. I think he thinks so too.” She looked at me. “Don’t waste it.”
I turned the paper over.
An address. Hudson Valley. A hand-drawn notation in the margin, precise and careful — the work of a man who’d thought hard about how to be found by exactly one person and no one else.
I folded it into my breast pocket.
“The file,” I said. “You still have copies.”
“Three. None of them where the Conti network can reach them.”
“Keep them there. If this goes wrong, those copies are the only thing standing between my family and what Antonio wants to do next.” I went to the door. “Why are you doing this, Voss? Really. The smart play is the bounty.”
She was quiet a moment. “Because I knew Kerra Conti,” she said. “Not well. But I knew who she was. She used to come to the office sometimes when she was small, before they kept her out of pack business, and she’d sit in the corner and read. and once Once, she told me — she was maybe ten — that she didn’t understand why everyone in the family was always angry, when being angry took so much work for so little.” A faint, dry smile that didn’t reach the fear underneath. “She was a good person in a family that didn’t have a use for one. I’ve spent thirty years moving money for men who’d have called that a weakness. Turns out, I disagree.” She opened the door for me. “Now go. My fifteen minutes are up, and so is my nerve. There’s a service stair at the end of the hall — take it, not the elevator. There are two men in a car across the street who weren’t there when you came up, and I’d rather you weren’t the reason they come inside.”
I took the service stair.
The two men in the car across the street were Conti — I caught their scent before I cleared the lobby’s side door, that pack-marked tightness, hunters who’d locked onto something. Not me, yet. The building. Somebody had flagged the Meridian. Sera’s window hadn’t just been her nerve; it had been real, and it had nearly closed on both of us.
I went out the service door into a delivery lane, away from the street, and was four blocks gone through three sets of crossing scents before they had any reason to look up from the front of the building.
I had the address. I had the thing that ended it.
And I had, for the first time in the whole long week, no one to carry. Amy and Noah were somewhere on a dark road north with a dying man who loved me enough to be hated, and the relief and the terror of it were the same feeling. I drove with both hands tight on the wheel toward the Hudson Valley and the old man who’d been waiting thirty years to be found.
26
Amy
I didn’t trust Jeff Alli. I want that on the record, because of what came after, and because he’d have wanted it on the record too.
I trusted Zimife’s read of him. There’s a difference, and it mattered for about ninety minutes on a dark highway, and then it stopped mattering forever.
He picked us up from the Sunset Park room a little after eleven — a gray sedan, nothing car, the kind a careful man drives because no one remembers it — and he didn’t try to talk to me, which was the first thing he did right. He just looked at Noah, asleep against my shoulder, and something moved across his face that I’d seen on exactly one other man.Then he started the engine,pulled into the dark, and began, methodically, to break our trail.
He was good. I’ll give the dead that. He took us north in a way that doubled, crossed, and doubled again, off the highway and back onto it, through the parking lot of a closed mall and out the far side, his eyes on the mirrors the whole time, his nose — I could see him doing it, the small lift of the head — testing the air at every stop. A wolf checking for a wolf. He drove like a man who’d spent thirty years learning exactly how our kind tracks our kind, and was using all of it to make sure no one tracked us.
“He told you what I am to him,” Jeff said, an hour in, eyes on the road. Not a question.
“He told me everything.”
“Then you know not to trust me.” A small, tired nod, like I’d confirmed something. “Good. Keep not trusting me. Just let me get you and the boy somewhere safe first, and you can not-trust me from there for the rest of your life.”
Noah stirred against me, surfaced, looked at Jeff with the wide careful eyes he’d been wearing for a week. “Are you Daddy’s friend?”
Jeff’s hands tightened on the wheel. “I was,” he said. “A long time ago. I’m trying to be again.” He glanced at Noah in the mirror. “Go back to sleep, kid. We’ve got a ways to go.”
Noah looked at me. I nodded. He went back down against my shoulder, trusting, because he was six and his mother had told him with her body that it was okay. I held him, watched the dying man drive, and thought: Zimife was right about you. Damn him, he’s always right about people, it’s the worst thing about him.