Page 43 of Lyric Squared

“Do you want me to come by once San gets here for the kids?” she offered.

“No. I know you have a busy schedule today. I’ll be fine,” I assured her.

“I’ll drop it all for you, babe.”

“I know.” I cringed.

She would and that’s what I loved so much about her. While women found themselves having several friends to juggle, I only needed one. Ever was a Godsend and there weren’t many in the world like her. She had my back and my front. If women weren’t stepping like her then I didn’t want them in my life. She was rare and she was mine. I loved that for me and for her because I had her covered, too.

“Talk to me.”

“We had sex,” I confessed.

After a gasp, the line went silent. I waited for Ever to get herself together before I said anything else. Before I was able, she responded.

“Wow. Okay.”

“And not regular sex, Ever. It should be illegal for him to be so good at what he does. He doesn’t cum once. He cums over and over and over. I’ve only seen that in porn, never in real life. He had me risking my livelihood, begging him to re-enter me each time he removed it. I didn’t give a damn that there was still nut on his dick or if he decided to leave it inside of me when he came. I just wanted every crevice of my pussy filled to capacity with him.”

“It sounds like the ideal night to me, so what’s with the sadness?”

“When I got out of the shower about ten minutes ago, he was gone.”

“Woah. Did he really do a hit it and quit it or did you say something to make him leave?”

“He didn’t do a hit it and quit it,” I explained, needing to give credit where it was due, “I just got so scared after last night and this morning. I’d go crazy over Keanu. If he’s been giving out dick like that all his life, I’ll go completely insane over that man.I will. I’ll only end up breaking my brother’s heart, again. Both of theirs. I can’t risk that, Ever. Not for anyone and especially not for some good dick – no matter who it belongs to.

“So, I told him that I was going to agree to being Collin’s girlfriend. He asked me on the way to my house last night. I told him I needed some time but after that night with Keanu, I don’t. I’ve made my decision. Collin is the safest option so that is what I’m going with. Keanu is a threat to my body, brothers, and heart. I can’t do this with him. Not freely and openly. Collin is different.”

“You told him what?” Ever’s voice raised, something it hardly ever did. In fact, I’d never heard her raise her voice in the decade I’d known her.

“I told him I was going to agree to being Collin’s girlfriend.”

“And you’re wondering why you’re hurt over there? Imagine how he feels right now. He came home to you, Lyric, risking it all as well. He risked his friendship with the two men that he loves dearly all for you to be ungrateful for his sacrifice and have the nerve to tell him that you’re going to agree to be someone else’s girlfriend. That’s ludicrous. I hate to say this, but whatever pain you’re feeling right now, you deserve it.”

“Ever!”

“I apologize, but I’m serious, Lyric. Why would you do such a thing?” she complained, making it obvious that she was not agreeing with my actions.

“You’re rooting for Keanu. I get that. It’s why you see errors in my ways, but if you were to really think about it… like really. You’d understand why Collin is my choice.”

“I’m rooting for you, Lyric. I’m rooting for your heart, and I’m only upset because I know where it belongs. Of course Collin is the better option on paper and maybe when it comes to the family, but none of that matters when the heart is involved,” she reasoned.

I understood where she was coming from, too, but I wasn’t willing to dismantle the family’s dynamic for the hell of it. I’d grown some courage that I shouldn’t have over the course of Keanu’s stay and wrote him a message that should’ve stayed between Ever and I. When I wrote it, I hadn’t thought about what would actually happen or how much it could change things for everyone. I was being selfish, but after having three months to think things through, I knew that it wasn’t a risk I could take.

“The heart has gotten me into a lot of trouble, Ever,” I reminded her.

“I understand.” She sighed. “As much as I don’t want to, I understand.”

“Thank you.”

“But the damage is kind of already done. It’ll be too hard for you two to stay out of each other’s bed now that you’ve both experienced what one another feels like. I couldn’t imagine not being intimate with Luca after the first time we gave into our desires. It would be torture and an unnecessary evil that I wouldn’t be able to face.”

“That’s exactly why I have to go ahead and take that next step with Collin. I’ve felt his dick. He is not half–stepping.”

“Well, if that’s what you think it will take, but I don’t see it. Because, even if he has the size, does he have the skills?”

“When I find out, I will let you know.”