Page 23 of Retrograde

“It’s really awkward,” he defended, gesturing to the belts of plates hanging from me. He set the last ones down and reached for me.

I let go and wrapped around him, my lips instantly on his as I cupped his face.

He moaned and dug his fingers in my ass as he pushed his tongue into my mouth. “You are so fucking sexy and I cannot stand it. So fucking sexy.” He lifted his head and glanced around before moving me over to a wall behind some other equipment.

Cameras. He’d clocked where the cameras were.

“Let me reward you for working so hard,” he begged against my lips as his fingers teased my tight training shorts.

Eloise and I both moaned, Iris on board since there was begging. I nodded and his hand moved under the spandex, his fingers brushing my pussy as he devoured my lips again.

“Hot and wet for me,” he groaned before pushing two fingers inside of me, his thumb expertly teasing my clit with my own wetness. “Come for me, baby girl. Give me what I’ve been craving and moan in pleasure.”

Fuck, he was so intense, but I wasn’t used to this even if I was loving it.

“Tell me what you need,” he whispered, understanding the issue.

That. That was what I needed.

I needed understanding and acceptance.

I kissed along his jaw and left marks as I tightened around his fingers. The moment he squeezed my breast with his other hand while managing to balance me, I couldn’t hold backanymore. I bit his neck to try and keep quiet, whimpering and chuffing as I orgasmed.

“I need to taste you more than I need air,” he breathed in my ear.

“Not here,” I gasped as he tugged at my shorts.

He growled but then nodded, pulling his hand out and licking his fingers for me to watch. He smirked when my body jerked with another shock of my orgasm. “Let me up into your new room, Sagan. I promise you won’t regret it. I’ll do better and pay better attention.”

“I like when you do,” I admitted and nodded after a moment.

The date thing was… I made it bigger in my head. Nothing was easy and I didn’t know him well yet either. It just seemed so basic bitch and low effort.

But I understood now that he saw it completely differently. He saw it as giving me normal and experiencing Nerthus when it had been denied me.

“He sees us in other ways. No one is perfect,”Eloise defended as he carried me to the door but then set me on my feet.

“Give me a second,” he muttered and went out first. “You all stood around the door like fucking dipshits? Seriously? Give her shit or looks—be busy with your phones. I’m allowed to kiss her when she permits it. Get over yourselves.”

Then he came back for me and everyone was absolutely looking at their phones… Except Belinda who was beaming at me.

And reminded me that I had a few more sets but could skipsomeof my cardio after my “break.”

“That woman is too much, but she brings out a side of you that I adore, so I can’t hate her,” Onyx grumbled as he pulled me along.

“It’s why she does it,” I admitted, nodding when he glanced at me. “She said over and over again that Father wouldn’t have turned out the way he did if someone had knocked out the pedestals under him instead of always demanding he perfected his masks.”

He was quiet until we were past the guards at the residence wing, but he paused at the ones up to my floor. “Just this time?”

I licked my lips and decided to listen to Belinda and put myself first. “Yes. I’ll let them know when you are allowed to come up.”

His eyes danced with something dark. “Yes, My Queen.”

Fuck, he was good at getting me wound up.

The moment we were on my floor without eyes, I was back in his arms. I ignored that he was “princess carrying” me and just enjoyed it.

I was naked on my bed moments later, swallowing a chuckle thatthreedifferent men had had me that way there now. How crazy was that after so many years of only the lamest sex ever with someone using and abusing me and I’d been too clueless to notice?