Page 27 of Donovan's Men

Twice.

“You just have to be a Goody Two-shoes.”

“No, I have to be a man who’s aware of his professional and ethical obligations. As I’m sure Tyson—”

“He kissed me.”

I dropped onto the couch like a stone.ThisI had not seen coming. Should have…but hadn’t. “Well, that’s a turn I didn’t—”

“Actually, I think I kissed him.”

Did that make things marginally better? No, not really. But it made more sense. “How did that make you feel?”

A snicker. “Let’s just say my body reacted in all the right ways. Well, you’d say the wrong ways, but I would’ve done him right there in the car if we could’ve managed it. Then he brings me home, gives me the meds, and what do I do? Fucking fall asleep. And he’s not here anymore, and…” He swallowed audibly. “I’m…”

“Scared? Not wanting to be alone? Wishing he was still there?”

“Yes, yes, and hell fucking yes.” Another sigh. “But also horny as fuck. I don’t suppose you’d come over and alleviate—”

“Uh, that’s not going to happen.” I pushed up off the couch. “I can talk you through the anxiety of being alone, but I can’t—”

“Come over and give me a blow job?”

Thank God I wasn’t drinking my tea. I’d have sputtered it everywhere. “No. That’s not what therapists do.”

“Naughty ones do. The ones in my imagination do.”

“That’s quite a vivid imagination. What’s really going on, Donovan?”

“I’m horny.”

“So you said.”

“I haven’t gotten laid since Caressa and Michael and Cole got together.”

Huh. “Not to be intrusive into their relationship, but how does their becoming a triad impact you?” Julie had mentioned the three best friends were now in a committed relationship with each other.

“Before Caressa came back from South Sudan, Cole and I used to…play…regularly at his house. We’d bring people into his dungeon, and, you know…”

“Yes, I know.” Vividly.Reading all those damn books. Being intensely curious. Wanting to be a fly on the wall at Club Kink…

He chuckled. “Yeah, I can see that about you.”

I didn’t ask how—I wasn’t certain I wanted to know.

After a moment, he continued, “I mean, Cole’s an equal-opportunity guy. Men, women, trans folk—who I guess are also men and women—”

“Right.”

“Me? I’ll play with women, but I only fuck men.”

Good to know. Funny, I’d have pegged him as perhaps bi. I got that vibe from Tyson as well. Interesting, this kiss they’d shared.

“Are you all about the guys? Or do you like women as well?”

I cleared my throat. “I’m…quite gay.”

“You ever try?”