And once again, the world shifted.
A cosmic shift.
A transcendent punch that said he was more than just a bastard. He could be more to me than any other male, and how absolutely tragic that somewhere in his broken soul, some part of him spoke to some part of me, whispering that we could be perfect for each other.
That this blistering, bulldozing connection wasn’t fate but fucking lunacy.
“Getoffme!” I turned mad. I fought like a feral wolf.
And his blood ran quicker from my keys.
His blood showed he was human. His anger revealed he was not. He was both monster and man, and suddenly, I wasn’t cold anymore.
I was hot and heavy and so full of rage, so pissed off at life and luck that Iscreamed. I screamed to expel the unfairness, the grotesqueness, therightnesseven while we dueled to the death.
“Die!” I screamed the single word. The word he’d whispered to me as his fingers had suffocated my body when we’d first met. Back then, in his house of horrors, he’d won. Out here, in the rain of shame, I would.
“Fuck’s sake!” He arched away, ducking away from my keys, doing his best to subdue me. “Just stop!”
We rolled again. We fought faster, crueler.
“I’ll never stop because I won’t let you hurt me!”
“Your very presence crucifies me!”
“Too fucking bad!”
We both lost any rules and guidelines of how a man and woman were supposed to treat each other. He grunted as my knee landed in his ribs. I moaned as his hand pulled my hair. We groaned as we rolled and tumbled, kicked and bruised.
We panted and gasped, one winning, the other losing, the roles reversing with each breath.
Until finally, he played dirty.
He slapped me, making my head ring. Then, in a wave of power, he rolled me until I slammed onto my back. His legs clamped over my legs, bringing his hips hard against me. His arms shoved mine away, giving him a heartbeat’s chance to grab my throat.
The second his fingers wrapped around my neck, I lost something inside me.
Sanity?
Humanity?
The very core of who I was.
He wanted to take my life?
Well, I would take his pain with me.
My hands shot downward while his squeezed tight around me.
My fingers dived between us, unzipping his soaking trousers and slipping into the damp heat of him.
I wrapped both hands around his cock and balls. My right around his hard shaft, my left around the soft vulnerability of his testicles.
And I motherfuckingsqueezed.
I squeezed as hard as he squeezed my throat.
He buckled over me.