This is about you being a dramatic little hermit who needs some sunlight.
I hesitate.
Me
I’m not ready.
The response is slower this time. More careful.
Ella
Ready for what?
I don’t answer.
Because if I say it out loud, it becomes real.
Rebecca
Katy.
Rebecca
You don’t have to decide anything today.
Rebecca
You just have to see the sunlightfor an hour.
I close my eyes.
I picture them standing outside. Ella with that soft, stubborn patience. Rebecca with her sunglasses and confidence and terrifying emotional accuracy.
I want to see them.
I’m just scared of what they’ll see in me.
Me
I can’t promise I won’t cry.
Ella
Perfect. I’ll bring tissues.
Rebecca
I’ll bring sarcasm. It balances it out.
A beat passes.
Rebecca
Katy?
Me
Yeah?