Page 35 of Better than Yesterday
When we surfaced inside the grotto, breaking into the air pocket beneath the skylight, Tessa pulled out herregulator and laughed, her voice echoing off the walls. “I’d forgotten how magical this place is. It’s even better than I remembered.”
I removed my own regulator as I floated beside her. “I was hoping you’d say that. I wanted you to remember what we had. What we could have again.”
Her smile faded. “Braden?—”
“I know what we agreed,” I cut in, the words spilling out. “I know you’re leaving. But I needed you to see this place, to remember that we had something real.”
“We did,” she said softly. “We do.”
“Then why does it feel like you’re already halfway out the door?”
The question hung in the air, raw and vulnerable.
“Because I don’t know how to stay,” she said sadly. “I don’t know how to choose between the life I’ve built and the life I want. I’m terrified that if I try, I’ll lose both.”
Her admission cracked something open in my chest. This wasn’t about me not being enough. It was about her being caught between two versions of herself—the ambitious scientist her parents shaped and the woman who loved the ocean and the boy she’d left behind.
I cupped her face in my wet hands. “Then don’t choose. Not yet. Be here with me. In this moment.”
She leaned into my touch, her eyes closing. When she opened them again, they were clearer. “Okay. This moment.”
I kissed her and tasted salt and sunlight. We floated in our secret sanctuary, suspended between past and future, holding on to the only thing that felt real. The present.
We stayed in the grotto for another hour, climbing onto the narrow rock shelf that ringed the interior. After removing our kits, we sat side by side, legs dangling in the water.
“We had big plans back then, didn’t we?” I said, breaking the comfortable silence.
“We were going to change the world.” A sad smile touched her lips.
“You were going to be a marine biologist. I only knew I wanted to stay here. With you.”
“You wanted to work at the resort. With Eli.”
“That was the family expectation, not my dream.” I picked up a small piece of limestone, turning it over in my hands. “It took me a long time to figure out what mine was.”
“Tidal Hops.”
“Yeah.” I shot a glance at her. “You helped me figure that out, you know. Even after you left.”
Her brow furrowed. “How?”
“You left to chase something you were passionate about, something that mattered to you. I realized I needed to do the same thing. To build something that was mine, not just another Coleridge following the family script of not good enough.”
She was quiet for a long moment. “I never thought about it that way. I always thought you saw my leaving as rejection.”
“Oh, I did. For a long time.” I set down the limestone and met her gaze. “But I’m trying to see it differently now. You weren’t rejecting me. You were choosing yourself.”
“Braden…” Her voice cracked.
“I’m not saying it didn’t hurt like hell. It did.” I took her hand. “But I understand it better now. I don’t want you to carry guilt for making the choice you needed to make. And now you’re back. Building something incredible, even though it scares you. Even though it means confronting everything you walked away from.”
She gave a soft laugh. “When did you get so wise?”
“I’ve had twelve years to think about it.” I stood and pulled her to her feet. “Come on. Let’s head back before your team sends a search party.”
The return dive was quiet and contemplative. As we swam side by side, our movements were comfortably synchronized—instinctive teamwork from years of diving together, now layered with adult longing.
Back onOdyssey, we stripped off our gear and used the warm water shower before re-dressing. Tessa tilted her face to the sun, eyes closed, a small smile on her lips.
