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And now, five weeks out of work, and I feel like I’m losing my mind. Five weeks without seeing Luca and Theo multiple timesa week. Five weeks without being mothered by Deb. Five weeks without feeling like myself.
I’m not sure whenmyselfstarted feeling like this, but here we are. My life doesn’t feel like my life without Luca and Deb and Theo and Daisy’s.
Fuck, I can’t wait to go back to work.
I push open the door, the ding making me smile.
As soon as Theo sees me, his eyes light up. “Hey!”
“Hi.” I wave at him. “I’m just here to talk.” When concern crosses Theo’s expression, I shake my head. “Nothing’s wrong. Just bored at home without Jasper and the kids.”
Theo laughs. “Well, you know we won’t ever turn down the chance to talk to you.”
I follow him into the kitchen, and when Luca sees me, he smiles. “Hey.”
I wave.
“You bored at home yet?”
Groaning, I lean against the counter. “Oh my God, you have no idea. It’s a lot with the kids and stuff, but I’m so ready to come back to work.”
Theo gives me a small smile. “I bet. I rarely get stir-crazy. Home is my happy place.”
Luca snorts. “Hunter is your happy place.”
“That too,” Theo says with a grin. “I can’t help it that I’d rather be with him than anywhere else. He’s home.”
My heart thumps. Jasper is home too. How fucking crazy is that? “I know how that feels.”
“Yeah,” Luca says, running a hand through his hair. “I bet it’s weird to not have him home after all this time.”
“I still can’t believe he took off work for so long to stay with me.”
Theo raises an eyebrow. “Really? You can’t? He’s gone for you, man. What do you even mean?”
Luca points at Theo like he just dropped the biggest truth bomb ever. “Yeah, I know,” I say, chuckling. “It’s just… five weeks off work is a lot. I think he would have taken more if I had asked him to or if I needed it.”
Sobering, Luca nods. “Yeah, God, I can’t believe how close we came to losing you.”
My throat tightens. “Yeah…”
If I let myself think about it too much, it gives me heart palpitations, so I try not to. I should probably get my ass into therapy. The kids are going, and if I want to be at my best for them, I should too.
Hell, I should probably talk Jasper into it as well. Between his past with Sarah, almost losing me in the fire, and then all of us settling into our new normal, I think we could all use a little professional help.
“Hey,” I say, glancing between Luca and Theo. “Do either of you have any recommendations for a therapist?”
Theo’s eyes widen. “Not anyone local. I always do video calls with Charlotte.”
“I have a list,” Luca says, pulling his phone out. “I went to a few before I found one I clicked with.”
Jesus. “Really? It’s not like… a one-and-done thing?”
Shaking his head, Luca keeps scrolling. “Wasn’t for me.”
Theo shrugs. “It was for me. Charlotte was the first person I talked to, and I clicked with her instantly.”
“Ah, here we go.” He takes a screenshot, and a few seconds later, my phone dings. “Just sent you a list I made of the therapists I tried when looking for one,” Luca says, pocketing his phone.
