Page 35 of Aidan (The Doherty Mafia)
Again. Harder. With every smack, he brought me closer and closer to another orgasm. Fuck. I was so wet for him.
Then he threw the spoon to the floor, grabbed me by my neck again and pushed me down to the floor.
I didn’t have a moment to think.
He took off his pants. I heard his belt come off. Then he was on top of me. The weight of him was heavy on me. He held me down with his hands pinning my shoulders to the floor.
I felt like I was about to come, my pussy throbbed.
When he entered me, I cried out with relief. Yes! I needed him inside me and there he was—so big and strong.
Aidan grunted as he thrust himself inside me.
He pounded me hard and quick. There was no more talking. We were on a high and on the verge of coming.
He was right, he gave me something to remember. I would never forget how good this felt. How much control he had over me. How willingly I gave him that control.
When we came together, I almost cried out that I loved him.
I had to bite my tongue to keep me from saying it.
I didn’t even know if I actually meant it.
It seemed so absurd. Five years later—he had moved on. I had too many secrets. I didn’t deserve to love him. He would never love me.
Thankfully, I managed to keep those thoughts to myself.
I was amazed to wake up next to him again.
It happened once and I thought it was just going to be the one time. This time around, I could sense myself starting to get comfortable. It was a dangerous feeling to feel—getting used to having him next to me every morning.
This felt very nice.
We were tangled up together in sheets and our limbs. I smelled like him and he smelled like me.
“Morning,” he groaned lazily when I moved. It seemed like he’d been awake for a bit, but not too long.
I was surprised he wasn’t already gone.
I snuggled up to him, running my mouth over his chest and trying to memorize his scent.
The sex was amazing. I loved being around him. In fact, I began to feel like I never stopped loving him—but the morning light also brought reality with it. The reality that this all would end.
The Barons still expected information from me, and now I had it. They were no doubt going to use that information against Aidan somehow. Probably to blackmail him. And then there were the other secrets.
A part of me just wanted to confess everything right now. I deserved his wrath. But what about Mom? What would the Barons do to her when they found out I’d snitched?
But I didn’t want to leave this bed. I didn’t want to move. Could we just lay still like this? Could we make time stop for a while?
“Breakfast?” he suggested, suddenly jumping out of bed like he’d read my mind. Aidan had no interest in making time stand still.
Sure, the sex was good. It had always been good. But that was a far cry from being in an actual relationship. From starting something with me. He wasn’t going to make the same mistake twice.
I watched him walk naked out of the room. I could hear him in the kitchen, walking about. I smelled coffee and then a few minutes later, there were eggs being fried on a pan.
He definitely had grown up. Five years ago, the Aidan I knew wouldn’t have known how to crack an egg without completely destroying it.
So much had changed in this time.
I’d lost all hope.
I’d lost my chance at happiness.
Now, the only thing I could do was make sure my mother stayed alive long enough to die a natural and peaceful death. After that, I had no idea what my future held for me.
Probably complete destruction.
Nineteen
Aidan
We had breakfast together, after which, I told Leah I needed to leave because I had to get to work and take care of some business. It wasn’t a complete lie—I was still needed back at the construction site. More importantly, I felt like I needed to put some distance between us.
I shouldn’t have gone to her apartment the night before. I shouldn’t have allowed myself to be so easily tempted. Even though I gave her the benefit of the doubt for now, as far as her involvement with the Barons was concerned, I still couldn’t allow myself to take this any further.
It was supposed to be just one fuck for old time’s sake. After that, I was supposed to move on with my life.
I didn’t know how I would ever move on with my life after her.
Instead of riding back to my apartment, I decided to go to Killian’s cabin.
I wasn’t prepared to tell any of my brothers about what was really going on with Leah. I was still trying to protect her. However, I felt like I needed to surround myself with some familiarity. Take my mind off how addictive Leah was.
