Page 63 of Guardian Falling
“Rogue,”I sass back.
He tips my chin up with two fingers, and the expression on his face when he looks at me does something that I am completely unprepared to process. Not heat or intensity, though those are there, but something quieter and more permanent underneath both of them.
“You bit me twice,” he says. Not accusing, just noting.
“In my defense, you told me to.”
“I did.” The corner of his mouth pulls up, and this time it is a smile, small, real, unguarded in a way I don’t think he lets himself be very often. “Didn’t hear a single complaint.”
“You’re lucky I like you,” I tell him.
The smile stays.
Something between us has shifted. Not prey and guardian, not trainer and newborn, but something older. Something that feels like the beginning of a thing neither of us knows how to manage yet, and neither of us is in a hurry to.
“Hey, Rogue?”
“Yeah.”
“Your training methods are extremely unorthodox.”
He pauses, his eyes lifting to mine. “Is that a complaint?”
“Absolutely not.” I tip my head back and look up at the stars. “But if you tell me you planned this part too, I will actually bite you again.”
When he speaks, his voice is still scraped raw, carrying no attempt at composure, and threaded through with something that sounds dangerously close to warmth. “That…” he says, “… was not part of the training plan.”
A laugh comes out of me. An actual, full, unguarded laugh, the first in days, hoarse, fractured, and slightly disbelieving at the sheer spectacular absurdity of every single thing that has happened tonight, but completely and unmistakably real. It shakes through my chest and into his, where we’re still pressed together, and the expression that crosses his face when he hears it, when he pulls back just enough to look at me in the dark, does something to my ribs I am nowhere near equipped to examine.
“No… it really wasn’t,” I agree.
The forest, indifferent and enormous, surrounds us, and the cold settles back in slowly at the edges of the warmth we’ve made.
Eventually, his knot recedes, and we pull apart slowly, careful in a silence that feels less like awkwardness and more like both of us refusing to rush something neither of us wants to end.
We walk back to the cabin naked and unbothered by it, hand in hand for the last thirty feet, and I don’t comment on the fact that this is the first time in days either of us has voluntarily touched the other without pretext.
Inside, we clean up and get dressed. I drink to refuel while he eats. Then we take it outside to the fire.
The fire he builds is small, practical, and somehow exactly right. We settle close enough that our knees almost touch, and the night presses in around us, cold, vast, and full of the sound of things living their lives in the dark.
“Can I ask you something kind of clinical?”
“Always.”
“The… biological quirk. Is that a lycan thing that happens every time, or a mate-bond thing, or—”
“Lycan thing… every time.”
“Every time.” I let that settle. “So you’ve… done that before.”
“Yeah.” He doesn’t look away from the fire. “I’ve had sex before, Charlotte.”
“Right. Of course. Two hundred years. Math.”
“Math…” He pauses, then his voice comes out quieter, “But not like this. This was different on every level, and I don’t have the vocabulary for how.”
The fire pops between us, and I feel the heat climb up my throat, up the underside of my jaw, into my cheeks, which is ridiculous, given everything my body has done tonight, that this is what makes me flush. But there it is.
