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His breathing is deep. Steady. The rhythm of a boy who sleeps through the night now because someone promised him the walls would hold.
I pull the blanket up to his waist. Press my lips against his temple. His hair smells like the shampoo Romeo bought — the expensive kind, the kind I used to smell on the men at the club and wonder what it would feel like to live in a world where shampoo was something you chose instead of something you rationed.
Tomás shifts. Mumbles. Does not wake.
Marisol.
Her door opens and she is awake — propped against the headboard with a book cracked against her knee. She looks upwhen the light from the hallway falls across her bed and her dark eyes find mine instantly.
The conversation happens without words. We have been speaking this language since the morning our mother left — the silent exchange between two people who share the same wound and check on it the way you check on a scar. Touching it. Making sure it has not reopened.
Are we safe?
Yes.
Are you sure?
Yes.
Her eyes hold mine for one more second. Measuring. Weighing my answer against the evidence she has been collecting since the day I told her we were moving into a penthouse with a man she did not trust. Then she returns to her book. The page turns. The dismissal is gentle — a girl granting her sister permission to leave because the nightly audit has been passed.
I close her door. The latch catches with a soft click and I stand in the hallway with my hand on the knob and my forehead against the wood and I let one breath shudder through me. Just one. The only one I will allow tonight.
The bedroom is dark. Romeo is on his back with his arm across his forehead and his eyes open. He is staring at the ceiling the way he stares at it when the noise inside him is louder than anything the penthouse can muffle — the particular stillness of a man pinned beneath the weight of his own thoughts, waiting for sleep that will not come because sleep requires surrender and Romeo does not know how to surrender anything he cannot control.
I lie down beside him.
His hand crosses the sheets. Finds my hip. Slides across my waist and pulls me against him — automatic, gravitational, themuscle memory of a man who has learned that my body beside his is the only thing that slows the engine. His chest rises against my back. His breath catches the hair at my neck and I feel him exhale — long, slow, the sound of a man releasing pressure he has been holding since he sat in a walnut-scarred chair and heard his father's voice come out of his own mouth.
I take his hand. Lift it from my waist. Press his palm flat against my sternum — against the bone, against the heartbeat, against the place where every promise I have ever made to the people I love lives.
He does not speak.
I do not push.
The penthouse breathes. The security system hums. Tomás's nightlight glows blue through the wall. Marisol's page turns once more, then silence.
In the dark, with his hand against my chest and his guilt pressing into my spine and the full shape of his secret sitting in my ribs beside Guido's three instructions, I make a promise I do not say out loud.
When you tell me, I will stay.
I have made this promise to Tomás — every night, every napkin note, every pair of shoes I bought with money earned on my knees in front of strangers. I have made it to Marisol — every lock checked, every dinner cooked, every morning I showed up in the kitchen because showing up is the only language my sister trusts.
I have been making this promise my entire life to every person the world told me to abandon.
I have never broken it.
Romeo's fingers curl against my sternum. His grip tightens — a reflex, a plea, the unconscious hold of a man who falls asleep every night expecting to wake up alone.
I press his hand harder against my chest.
I am not going to start with him.
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romeo
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