Page 79 of Repo'd His Heart
Mikael and I hadn’t talked about specifics about how we were going to co-parent our son. I didn’t look forward to the conversation. I mean at some point our current arrangement will end. He was going to have to go home permanently. He hadn’t mentioned the crazy bitch he was fucking. I’m sure it wouldn’t be long before she popped up again and I didn’t care about him fucking with her she just couldn’t be around my son. That wasn’t to say if Mikael got into a committed relationship I wasn’t finna be the baby mama saying my son couldn’t be around the girlfriend. However, he wasn’t about to have every bitch he was fucking around our son. I’d cut up real quick, behind my son. As bad as I didn’t want to have these conversations there was no time like the present. I just hoped this conversation wouldn’t ruin the vibe between us.
Once we’d finished up my appointment we made our way back inside his car. Mikael basically deebo’d all my ultrasound pictures.
“Mikael?” I called out to him as I turned in my seat slightly to look at him while he drove.
He had to go back to work against his wishes, I was having him drop me off at my condo. As of lately Mikael had been slick trying to get me over to his house. He hadn’t been shy about wanting to live in the same house once our son was born. So, I knew if I went over to his house he’d try to keep me there.
“What?” Mikael quickly glanced at me out of the corner of his eye.
I frowned, not liking his harsh tone. “You don’t have to say what like that.”
“I do, cause I can feel the bullshit that’s been brewing in that head of yours since we left ya appointment.”
“Don’t act like you know me,” I playfully mugged him in the side of his head.
“Definitely not an act. Idoknow you. So go ahead and say what you gotta say,” Mikael said winking at me.
“Well, uh, technically we aren’t together. You can see other people and so can I. But I want us both to be respectful to each other when it comes to who we allow our son around. Like that Nene girl you were dealing with. She’s not allowed around our son. Period I don’t care if you fu- “
“You just like to hear ya self-talk huh?” Mikael asked with an amused smile. “You ain’t said shit. Just wasting ya breath.”
“How? Everything I said was valid!” I said, raising my voice in annoyance. “If I was dealing with a nigga you… “
“He’d be dead,” Mikael said plainly and I gave him a hard stare.
“Be serious Mikael,” I groaned, cutting my eyes at him.
“I am.”
“When I do decide I’m ready to start dating, which won’t be for a while. However, it will eventually happen.You,can’t go around killing niggas because they deal with me.” I tried to reason with Mikael, but it was pointless.
“Try me,” he said as he glanced over at me with a deadly expression in his eyes. “We finna have a baby. I plan on being there for every fucking thing when it comes to my seed. I’m not finna miss shit fa’ nobody. I ain’t sayin’ we gotta put titles on us but at the end of the day it is what it is. We finna be a family and neither one of us finna have time for nobody outside of our family. You feel me?”
I blew out an aggravated sigh as I watched Mikael drive casually like everything he was saying made perfect sense. His long, dark, curly, sandy brown hair was hanging free today and with every movement he made his curls bounced wildly. It made me wonder if our son would come out with hair just like Mikael. Or if he’d have my deep coca colored skin or his dad’s warm sienna complexion. My heart felt full when I thought of our son and I couldn’t wait until he was here so I could hold him in my arms. He might have not been planned but he was turning out to be the best blessing I’ve received in a while. Even if he came attached with a delusional dad attached with him. I loved that Mikael wanted to be hands on with our son. It gave me more security knowing I wasn’t going to be doing this alone. I didn’t need a crazy baby daddy chasing off anyone I tried to deal with. Mikael would be exactly that and no amount of me being civil with him would change that.
“That might work for now Mikael but eventually you’re going to want to date.”
“The only broad I’m tryna date is my baby mama.” I swear my heart stopped beating when he said that. My mind couldn’t comprehend his words.
“Huh?” I breathlessly asked him. Mikael didn’t answer me right away. He drove without a care in the world. I could see a loop side grin as I kept staring at him waiting for an explanation. He pulled in the parking garage at my condo and parked by the main entrance.
Mikael turned his body towards me as he replied, “You heard me. Let me find out you not only blind as fuck, but you need a hearing aid too.” He jokingly nudged me on my chin.
“But I’m saying why you wanna date me? I mean we already have a baby on the way.”
“The fuck that mean. I can’t date you?” He quizzically asked.
“Well yeah but, uh, like we dated before?” I stumbled over my words trying to communicate my words properly.
“Right before and we both changed hella since. I wanna get to know the current version of my Honey.”
“That makes sense,” I said as I found myself getting nervous. The thought of us dating again made my stomach feel like it was full of butterflies swirling around it.
Mikael shook his head at me then a huge smile spread across his face as he said. “You funny as fuck.”
“How?”
“Cause man, when you be ridin’ my dick you be havin’ all the confidence in the world. Ya ass be talkin’ hella shit to a nigga but you wanna get all shy and shit when I say I wanna date you.”
