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ROSA

Rosa

WHAT? She is a grown woman and i support her choices.

Holly

I also support her choices.

Max

As stated above, I can support choices without needing updates about anyone’s choices. Or visuals.

Rosa

Coward,part two.

I press the heel of my hand to my forehead. There is not enough coffee in the world for this.

I am going to work now, where allegedly i am paid to do things other than fend off verbal assaults

Rosa

Did you though

Goodbye forever

I mute the chat. Then immediately unmute it because I’m weak and nosy. Then re-mute it because I have some self-respect.

My phone buzzes again.

Miller

I’m leaving for work

You want a ride?

My heart does that stupid, eager thing again.

I stare at the message for a long second. Because the answer is yes. Obviously yes. I want rides and coffee and all kinds of things that are suddenly beginning to feel dangerously domestic.

I pause my train of thought.

No. Notdangerouslydomestic.

Dangerously domesticimplies I have doubts,either about my feelings or about his. And I don’t. Not after yesterday.

So, no. It doesn’t feel dangerously domestic at all. It feels deliciously domestic.

However, I am not entirely sure what the rules are now. What we do at work. How public this is. Whether getting into his SUV on a Monday morning will make me spontaneously combust.

But then I remember his voice in the afternoon light, low and certain.

We don’t go backwards. Forward only.

And underneath that one word I’ve been turning over since yesterday.

Someday.