Page 44 of In Every Lifetime
He looked at me, his eyes now full of guilt. “You’re seeing someone, Sarah. I—I can’t believe I forgot. I’m sorry.”
The air went out of me.
I had forgotten too. My hand came up to cover my mouth as the reality of what had almost happened settled in. It wasn't Fai's fault. The lie was mine, and so was the responsibility to protect whatever it was I had claimed to be protecting. My heart. My sanity. The careful distance I had spent months constructing.
He misread my silence. I could see it happen in real time, the guilt in his face shifting into something worse. He thought I was horrified by him. I wasn't. I was disgusted with myself for letting any of this happen—the lie, the almost kiss… the divorce.
He stepped further away, his eyes dripping with remorse.
“I’m so sorry,” he muttered. He looked around the room, reaching to the head of the bed and pulling off a pillow before turning and walking toward the door. He looked back at me over his shoulder. “Thank you for trusting me. I’m sorry… I’m sorry I already broke it.” His tone cracked my already broken heart. “I’ll sleep on the couch.”
Fai practically ran out of the room afterward, leaving me behind to wonder…
Had I just dodged a bullet by lying about this boyfriend to protect my own heart?
Or did I just lose the love of my life because I was too scared of what could happen?
