Page 53 of In Ruins
She’s right. I only have three months left, give or take a few days, and I still haven’t made any plans on what I’m going to do. My father didn’t send me here with any money, and I didn’t get a chance to grab the bank card that Luca opened for me. I have nothing. I don’t even have my passport or ID cards. He just pays the sisters to get whatever I need, which I’m actually surprised about. I thought he’d just forget about me until I gave birth.
I guess Father knew that by sending me here without a dime, I wouldn’t be able to run away. I have no clue what I’m going to do, because I’m not letting him get his hands on her. This is just another thing that’s majorly stressing me out.
“Come on, it’s time to go. No more moping around here today,” Isa says, breaking me out of my thoughts.
“Go where?”
“I set up a day out for us so that we can get some baby clothes for Little Nugget,” she tells me, smiling.
“You’re the best. So thoughtful and I love you, but I don’t have any money, remember?”
“This trip is on me. This is my auntie's duty.”
“But—”
“Nope. Don’t want to hear it. Let’s go,” she says, grabbing my hand and dragging me behind her.
The driver and Sister Mary accompany us on our outing, and they stay in the car again, which suits us just fine. We head for one of the small baby shops that isn’t too far from the doctor’s office, and we chat a bit as we browse around.
“I’m scared,” I say.
“Scared of what?” she asks.
“Scared of having this baby. What if something goes wrong?”
“Nothing will go wrong. You’re going to deliver a healthy baby girl, and you’re going to be fine too.”
“I hope so, but I’m still so nervous. I’ve been thinking about this, and I need you to promise me something.”
“Anything.”
“You’re most likely going to be in the delivery room with me if I’m still here when the time comes. Promise me that if something happens to me, you’ll grab her from the hospital and keep her safe. Promise me you’ll find Enzo and tell him about her. I’ll give you all the details later so you’ll know. Or if you can’t find him, or he… he doesn’t want her, please keep her safe for me. I know it’s a lot to ask, but I don’t want her to end up anywhere near my father.”
“You are going to be fine, but I’ll promise you just in case… If I can’t find him, I’ll make sure to hide her away so that your father will never get his hands on her,” she says sincerely.
“Thank you. You have no idea how much it means to me that you would do that.”
I’ve decided that as soon as I give birth, I’m running away with her. Now, I can breathe a little easier knowing that if something does happen to me during childbirth, Isa will take care of my baby.
We continue shopping and end up with some onesies, cute dresses, newborn diapers, and other small items. We only took about an hour or so. I swear I feel as though there are eyes on mewhen we step out of the store, but when I discreetly look around, I don’t see anything out of the ordinary or anyone I know.
After heading back, we chill in my room for the rest of the afternoon until it’s dinner time. When we’re finished eating, we both head to our own rooms for the night since I’m kind of exhausted from all the moving about today. I get tired easily these days.
I lie in bed for a while, reading a book to pass the time until I’m ready to fall asleep. I start to feel sleepy, and when I look at the clock, I see that it’s close to midnight. Wow! I’ve been reading for a few hours already. Nothing feels better than getting lost in a book.
I get up and pee again since baby girl is still on my bladder, and then get into bed. I turn off the lights and then slip under the covers. In no time, I’m fast asleep.
CHAPTER 15
ENZO
I don’t know why the hell I decided to set this meeting up for tonight, especially when I don’t even want to be there.
But business must go on as usual, even if I’m dealing with my own personal shit at the moment. Lately, I’ve been preoccupied with thoughts of my girl every single day, and it’s just pissing me off that I haven’t been able to find her yet.
I’ve got to give it to her asshole of a father. He hid her pretty well. Even though it’s taking me more time than I would have liked, I know I’m going to find her eventually.
I always get what I want, and right now that’s her. Once she’s in my grasp again, I’m never going to let her go. Her father and Salvatore be damned, because she sure as fuck isn’t going to marry that piece of shit anymore.
