Page 82 of Redeemed in Crimson
“Yes, please.”
He preps me gently with his fingers and then with my favorite dildo, slowly opening me up for him the way we’ve been practicing. With his other hand, he keeps constant teasing touches on my clit and in my pussy, making me a squirming mess, begging for more. Finally, he pulls everything free and squeezes what feels like an entire bottle of lube onto my asshole and his cock.
“Tell me if anything hurts. I’ll go slow.”
Pressing into me, he does go slow, andnowI can tell that he’s definitely downsized his jewelry, butfuck me, he’s bigger than the dildo.I whine, and he stops advancing to spit on myclit and rub tight circles in my favorite spot. It feels so good that he sneaks in another inch, and the feelingmorphs.The uncomfortable pressure is still there, but what was initially pain has been accepted by my body and transformed into something else entirely. Pleasure, yes, but the fullness is so foreign, and I feel so connected to Ledger that all I can do is take deep breaths and accept this feeling.
“You okay, Sloane?”
“Yes, please, it’s getting good…more. Please,” I whine, watching Ledger’s eyes roll back into his head as he mouths, “Fuck me,”and gives me another couple of inches. God, watching him lose himself to pleasure when he’s inside me is just as good as experiencing it myself.
His eyes pop back open and meet mine as he pushes in slowly until his hips are flush against my ass. He looks down at where we’re connected, jaw clenched and nostrils flaring, before leaning his head back to look up at the ceiling. I can see his muscles tensing, and I briefly worry that he’s hurt himself somehow when his thumb starts again, rubbing circles on my clit.
“You have to come, Sloane. Please,” his voice cracks, and I realize he’s not hurting. He’s trying not to come.Fuck, I love doing that to him. And it’s not going to take much, so he’s lucky that I’ll be able to do as he says.
As I feel myself tightening like a rubber band about to snap, I give him a warning.
“Ledger…Daddy…I’m going to…” He immediately moves, sensing that I’m right there. He plunges two thick fingers inside my pussy while his thumb continues working my clit, and he gives in and starts thrusting. I feel his ladder drag in and out, and that’s what shoves me fully off the cliff. I don’t fall…I’m just floating, a million tiny pieces of myself caught in a sparkling net of pleasure, drifting in the wind. I vaguely get a sense of Ledger yelling his release, but I’m not fully conscious anymore, certainly not fully in my body. Finally, I wake all the way up as I’m being rinsed off in the shower.
“Hi, baby,” he whispers, tears streaming down his face.
“Hey, hey, it’s okay. What’s wrong?”
Ledger has my face cupped in both his hands, and if I didn’t see a blinding amount of love every time he looked at me, I might be caught off guard by the adoration I find in his gaze.
“I just love you so much. You’ve given me so much of your love and your trust, and today was such a gift, to be able to worship you and share that with you.” He takes a deep breath. “You’re my whole world. You and LJ. I wish I could marry you again and again just to celebrate what you mean to me.”
I give him a soft kiss. “I love you too. And LJ, huh? Have I been saying that one out loud accidentally, too?”
His smile is everything, maybe the sweetest I’ve ever seen from him. “Yeah, Angel. You have. When you’re awake and when you’re asleep, you talk to him, and that’s all you ever call him. You’ll be the best mom ever. And you can name him whatever you’d like.”
I don’t have any more words for now, so I just rest in Ledger’s arms, this beautiful man who has given me a world I hadn’t known could exist. As we finish our shower and do our nightly routine and fall into bed exhausted, I think of how perfect the day was. I know tomorrow will be even better, because regardless of what happens, I’m his. Regardless ofwhat anyone else thinks of me, or what the world throws at us, I’m Ledger Sinclair’s. Forever.
