Page 25 of Drax (Iron Thunder MC 3)
“I’m glad you came to see me tonight,” I said, and she let out a deep sigh.
“I didn’t come to see you for this,” she replied and stood up from the couch with a jerk. She was suddenly angry with me.* * *Mary-Beth was hurriedly putting her clothes back on. I pulled up my underwear and stared, waiting for her to give me an explanation. What the fuck was this about?
“Where are you going?” I asked. She was in the process of washing her face and hands at the kitchen sink, like she wanted to remove every last trace of me off her.
“I need to leave. I need to put some distance between us, Drax.”
She was trying to avoid looking at me. I still wanted her. Once wasn’t going to be enough. I could feel my cock throb back to life as I watched her moving around the apartment, her ass quivering as she pulled her jeans up and then ran a hand through her hair.
“I thought we discussed this already. This is the safest place for you.”
“Not when I’m risking my own sanity!” she hissed and shook her head.
“What the fuck are you talking about, MB?” I went toward her, but she flew across the apartment to the other end. “Okay, I need you to put it in clear words for me.”
Her eyes were burning when she looked at me now. She looked angry and frustrated and vulnerable, all at the same time.
“Don’t you see what’s happening here, Drax? I’m falling down the rabbit hole again. Here with you. I’m…helpless against you. I can’t stop myself from wanting you and now we’ve done it again and I’ll be thinking about you for the next twelve months.”
Her shoulders rose and fell. I watched as she spoke. The way her lips quivered with emotion. I wished I knew the right words to say, but I sucked at that.
“At this rate, I’m never going to get over you,” she said and shook her head again.
I clenched my jaws tightly. I didn’t know what she wanted me to say but I could sense she wanted me to respond. I’d never been good at this—knowing what to say at the right moment. It’s what always got me in trouble. What got us into fights.
“You are free to do what you want, MB. You’re not a prisoner here,” I said in a low voice.
Her nostrils flared. She looked disappointed. I knew I hadn’t said the right things, but I just wanted to be honest with her.
“You don’t have to leave. You should stay the night here. Let me take care of you.”
Her eyes glistened and slowly she started to shake her head.
“I don’t want to put myself through that again. I don’t know if I’ll recover this time.”
“Recover from what?” I asked.
She looked away from me because it seemed like she couldn’t face me while she said the words.
“Recover from losing you, Drax. What else do you think I’m talking about?”
I closed my eyes and turned my face up to the ceiling.
“You never lost me, MB,” I replied. “You are the only one.”10Mary-BethI was shocked. Literally dumb struck.
In all the time that I had known Drax, I never expected him to say those words. I didn’t think he had it in him. To admit his true feelings for me or anybody.
All I could do right now was stare at him in awe.
He came toward me and it was like my feet were glued to the ground. I knew I needed to stay strong, needed to leave. Was I really going to fall for this again? Let him sweep me off my feet?
But I couldn’t move. He put his hands on my shoulders. His strong big hands. His grip was like steel. I wasn’t going anywhere now.
“Did you hear what I said?” he asked. I gulped. My throat was dry.
“I heard what you said but I don’t know if I can believe you.”
“That you’re the only one?”
“Things have been difficult between us.”
“That was before I lost you. I should have fought harder for you. But now I know what life without you is like and I definitely don’t want to continue living that.”
I stared up at him, looking into his deep dark eyes. He didn’t break his gaze. He was confident in what he was saying. Did he actually believe what he was saying?
What did this mean?
“Drax…I…”
“I know this isn’t the right time to have this conversation. All you want to do is get away as far as possible from your brother and me.”
“Never you, Drax. I don’t want to get away from you.” The words came tumbling out of me before I could stop them. My cheeks flushed. I felt embarrassed. What did I just admit?
He clenched his jaws like he was satisfied by my admission.
