Page 43 of Bolt (Iron Thunder MC 1)
But he was worth it.
How he made me feel when he was in the same room as me was enough to make all the anxiety and worry worthwhile.
I reached for his wet bubbles-covered hand and kissed it.
“I’m happy you’re here.” We smiled at each other.
“So what did Sophie and you get up to?” he asked.
I shrugged. I hadn’t quite decided how honest I was going to be with him about my evening.
“Nothing much. We talked. There wasn’t much to do.”
Bolt was watching me so closely that I knew I had to tell him the truth. I had to be honest. I didn’t want to start our relationship on a note of secrecy. I had to tell him what I did.
“Actually, there is something else I did. Something I had to do,” I said.
“Tell me what you had to do, Cassie.”
I had my hands bunched together in my lap. I tried to not look away. I couldn’t change what I’d already done, but I needed him to understand why I did it.
“I saw Chip.”
Bolt continued looking at me in silence for a few moments and then his brows furrowed.
“What did you just say?”
“I asked Sophie…begged her, to let me see my brother.”
Bolt’s eyes grew dark. I could see a rage beginning to brew behind them. I was afraid of what he would do, what he would say. Was he just going to walk out? Would he break up whatever we just started?
“Why the fuck would you do that?” he growled. Even though his voice was low and firm, it didn’t sound calm.
“I’m sorry, Bolt, but I had to see him. I wanted him to know I disapproved of his actions. I felt helpless and desperate. I didn’t know if you would come back to me tonight. If you were safe. I guess I was looking for someone to blame.”
Bolt lifted himself out of the bath. Water splashed out and he jumped over me on the floor, reaching directly for the towel I’d placed for him on the hook.
“I didn’t go to see him because I sympathize with him, you have to understand, Bolt. I just wanted him to know how wrong he is.” I stood up in desperation, but he wasn’t looking at me anymore. He continued drying himself with the towel, with his back turned to me.
“And Sophie…it’s not her fault. Please don’t take this out on her. I begged and pleaded with her. I told her you wouldn’t mind. I told her about us.”
His hands stopped moving and he looked at me over his shoulder now.
“I was gone for a few hours, Cassie, and it seems like you made a Hell of a lot of decisions by yourself.” Again, his voice was low; he wasn’t the kind of man who would raise his voice at a woman. That much I could tell.
“I know I shouldn’t have. I should have waited for you.”
“You pulled this shit behind my back.”
“I wasn’t trying to go behind your back, Bolt!”
I followed him out of the bathroom. He strode over to the wardrobe where his fresh clothes were.
“I was just trying to vent my frustration at him. I see this Club in a different light now. I wanted him to know that.”
Bolt dressed himself in silence. I had no idea what he was going to do next, but I could feel tears filling my eyes. I’d hoped for his safe return so we could be together again, but now I was the one responsible for ruining it.
“I know I shouldn’t have told Sophie or anyone else about us, not without speaking to you first. I get it. This is why I wanted to be honest with you, I wanted to tell you the truth. I didn’t want to hide it.”
Bolt was changed now and on his way to the door, but he stopped and turned to me.
“Don’t ever fuckin’ think you can hide anything from me here. I will always find out. Every fuckin’ thing.” He spoke through clenched jaws and then walked out of the room.
I threw myself on the bed. I was so close to having him again and now this was all my fault. Why did I think he’d forgive me for my actions? I was supposed to be his woman. I was supposed to be loyal to him. Now he would never trust me again.
I sobbed into the pillow and waited for something to happen.
What?
The only thing I could think of was Bolt returning to kick me out of the Club. Along with Chip. If he couldn’t trust me, what good was I to him?
I wished I could take it back. I hadn’t needed to see Chip. He was an idiot who’d put everyone’s life in danger. Why did I risk my relationship because of him?
If only Bolt would give me another chance.
